My Journey

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[COLOR=black]Today is the 7th day of vapping and it was a crappy day.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]I have been craving a smoke soooooooo bad today. [/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]I thought I could overcome it by vapping more and using a higher nic content between 24mg and 30mg. Had to recharge 1 of the batts (thank God I have 4 and the passthrough), and was constantly filling the carts like every 6th draw.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]Oh I had wonderful vapor, even managed to blow a smoke ring. Great throat hits going on, great taste but it hasn't stopped the craving.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]Finally gave in and smoked the last cig in the house. 2 hours later and I'm digging through the ashtrays in the house and garage trying to find a smokeable butt. Of course none exist because I emptied out most of the ashtrays. [/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]So I start chain vapping. I'm vapping like a possesed steam engine and it ain't helping.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]You know when you get a craving so bad that you don't care if you leave the house looking like the bride of Frankenstein? That's me. I swear to God the people at the gas station thought I was a homeless person strung out on drugs.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]Anyway, I get my smokes 2 packs of Marlboro's and come straight home. I figure that should alleviate some of the anxiety about craving a smoke.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]But NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Life can't be simple for me. Now I get into a heated argument with the pack of smokes sitting in front of me.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]Me: "No, I'm not going to open you. I'm [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] going to sit here and vape until you go [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] away."[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]Marl: "You want me. I know you do."[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Me: "No I don't"[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Marl: "Oh yes you do. That's why you [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] bought me. You love me, you need[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] me, you want me. Admit it."[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Me: "Shut up! I'm not listening to [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] you. La,la,la,la,la,la, la, la, I can't hear [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] you!"[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]This is not good. Not only am I talking to the pack of smokes, I start multi-tasking. (I do this when I'm stressing out badly.)[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] I'm vapping away, peeling and coring apples to dry, sweep the floors, mop, do the dishes, clean the counters.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]I finally sit down and give into the craving. "See, that wasn't so bad." [/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]I had a total of 4 analogs today. In the end, I realized that's damn good considering that just 7 days ago I was smoking 2 packs a day.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=black]As for the analogs, they're sitting by my keyboard. [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Marl: "Psst. Wanna light me up?"[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Me: "No, when I'm finished with this, I'm [/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] going to bed. "[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Marl: "Pssstt...."[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Me: "Shut up"[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black]Marl: "Pssssstttt, come on, just a[/COLOR]
[COLOR=black] quickie."[/COLOR]
Me: "Good night Marl."
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