11-19-09
Today is the 7th day of vapping and it was a crappy day.
I have been craving a smoke soooooooo bad today.
I thought I could overcome it by vapping more and using a higher nic content between 24mg and 30mg. Had to recharge 1 of the batts (thank God I have 4 and the passthrough), and was constantly filling the carts like every 6th draw.
Oh I had wonderful vapor, even managed to blow a smoke ring. Great throat hits going on, great taste but it hasn't stopped the craving.
Finally gave in and smoked the last cig in the house. 2 hours later and I'm digging through the ashtrays in the house and garage trying to find a smokeable ..... Of course none exist because I emptied out most of the ashtrays.
So I start chain vapping. I'm vapping like a possesed steam engine and it ain't helping.
You know when you get a craving so bad that you don't care if you leave the house looking like the bride of Frankenstein? That's me. I swear to God the people at the gas station thought I was a homeless person strung out on drugs.
Anyway, I get my smokes 2 packs of Marlboro's and come straight home. I figure that should alleviate some of the anxiety about craving a smoke.
But NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Life can't be simple for me. Now I get into a heated argument with the pack of smokes sitting in front of me.
Me: "No, I'm not going to open you. I'm
going to sit here and vape until you go
away."
Marl: "You want me. I know you do."
Me: "No I don't"
Marl: "Oh yes you do. That's why you
bought me. You love me, you need
me, you want me. Admit it."
Me: "Shut up! I'm not listening to
you. La,la,la,la,la,la, la, la, I can't hear
you!"
This is not good. Not only am I talking to the pack of smokes, I start multi-tasking. (I do this when I'm stressing out badly.)
I'm vapping away, peeling and coring apples to dry, sweep the floors, mop, do the dishes, clean the counters.
I finally sit down and give into the craving. "See, that wasn't so bad."
I had a total of 4 analogs today. In the end, I realized that's damn good considering that just 7 days ago I was smoking 2 packs a day.
As for the analogs, they're sitting by my keyboard.
Marl: "Psst. Wanna light me up?"
Me: "No, when I'm finished with this, I'm
going to bed. "
Marl: "Pssstt...."
Me: "Shut up"
Marl: "Pssssstttt, come on, just a
quickie."
Me: "Good night Marl."
Today is the 7th day of vapping and it was a crappy day.
I have been craving a smoke soooooooo bad today.
I thought I could overcome it by vapping more and using a higher nic content between 24mg and 30mg. Had to recharge 1 of the batts (thank God I have 4 and the passthrough), and was constantly filling the carts like every 6th draw.
Oh I had wonderful vapor, even managed to blow a smoke ring. Great throat hits going on, great taste but it hasn't stopped the craving.
Finally gave in and smoked the last cig in the house. 2 hours later and I'm digging through the ashtrays in the house and garage trying to find a smokeable ..... Of course none exist because I emptied out most of the ashtrays.
So I start chain vapping. I'm vapping like a possesed steam engine and it ain't helping.
You know when you get a craving so bad that you don't care if you leave the house looking like the bride of Frankenstein? That's me. I swear to God the people at the gas station thought I was a homeless person strung out on drugs.
Anyway, I get my smokes 2 packs of Marlboro's and come straight home. I figure that should alleviate some of the anxiety about craving a smoke.
But NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Life can't be simple for me. Now I get into a heated argument with the pack of smokes sitting in front of me.
Me: "No, I'm not going to open you. I'm
going to sit here and vape until you go
away."
Marl: "You want me. I know you do."
Me: "No I don't"
Marl: "Oh yes you do. That's why you
bought me. You love me, you need
me, you want me. Admit it."
Me: "Shut up! I'm not listening to
you. La,la,la,la,la,la, la, la, I can't hear
you!"
This is not good. Not only am I talking to the pack of smokes, I start multi-tasking. (I do this when I'm stressing out badly.)
I'm vapping away, peeling and coring apples to dry, sweep the floors, mop, do the dishes, clean the counters.
I finally sit down and give into the craving. "See, that wasn't so bad."
I had a total of 4 analogs today. In the end, I realized that's damn good considering that just 7 days ago I was smoking 2 packs a day.
As for the analogs, they're sitting by my keyboard.
Marl: "Psst. Wanna light me up?"
Me: "No, when I'm finished with this, I'm
going to bed. "
Marl: "Pssstt...."
Me: "Shut up"
Marl: "Pssssstttt, come on, just a
quickie."
Me: "Good night Marl."
