AI was smoking 1 and 1/2 pack of 120's a day for over 25 years.
I loved it - did not ever think about quitting.
Then I went to the emergency room ( unrelated to smoking ) about 1 & 1/2 years ago and they found major clogs in my arteries - Dr told me that I needed to quit smoking.
I started chantix ( drug from hell ) and thats when my life turned upside down.
The drug worked, I picked a date and within 2 weeks I was not smoking anymore.
However, my life was about to change, and, for the worst. I kept using the chantix as prescribed, but I started feeling like a crazy woman.
Really bad nigh mares, I could not focus, was unable to complete a conversation; I felt like I was losing my mind.
I would drive right by my exit on the highway, only to turn around and miss it again. I would walk into a room and have no idea how I got there and why I was there.
Then it happened.
I had a psychotic episode and almost took my life. Most unusual for me cause I LOVE LIFE -
I eventually got better, but parts of me were missing.
I was smoke free for about 9 months, but, could not eat, sleep, even garden - my favorite thing in the world other than my children. I would walk in the garden and just stare at the rows....unable to accomplish much at all.
One day I found a pack that I had hidden in the freezer and - well, yea, I broke down and had one. I felt alive again. I felt alive again.
I promised myself that I would only smoke 3 a day. I did for about 3 weeks, then it went to 4, then 5, then 6 and I got scared again.
I was NOT going back to 1 and 1/2 pack again.....
I started to look into ecigs and read till I could read no more and bought my 1st set from Green Smoke.
At 1st it seemed to help, but I did not like the way I felt. I was spacey and unfocused.
But, I was determined. I started reading more and then I found this forum.
I was missing something...vaping made me feel like I was on chantix again - I needed to figure it out.
As I began to read, and read, and read, I found that although I was addicted to nicotine, I was also addicted to the other 6,000 or so chemicals in the analogs.
Ecigs were just not cutting it the way I thought ( hoped ) they would.
Then I found snus and snuff - the MAOI's I was missing and that my body craved.
I use snus and it calms me - in a way that smoking did, but, I needed the hand mouth thingy....really bad.. So, I vaped and felt the same....unfocused, blurry vision, irritable, depressed........like, well like, oh shoot - terrible!
With the help from some of the members here, especially Vaporer, I switched to VG.
The PG was the culprit!
Now I vape, use snus and snuff and Im a happy camper.
I still do my morning ciggy, but I have a feeling it will not be too long before thats over - it smells like poop and tastes terrible!
I loved it - did not ever think about quitting.
Then I went to the emergency room ( unrelated to smoking ) about 1 & 1/2 years ago and they found major clogs in my arteries - Dr told me that I needed to quit smoking.
I started chantix ( drug from hell ) and thats when my life turned upside down.
The drug worked, I picked a date and within 2 weeks I was not smoking anymore.
However, my life was about to change, and, for the worst. I kept using the chantix as prescribed, but I started feeling like a crazy woman.
Really bad nigh mares, I could not focus, was unable to complete a conversation; I felt like I was losing my mind.
I would drive right by my exit on the highway, only to turn around and miss it again. I would walk into a room and have no idea how I got there and why I was there.
Then it happened.
I had a psychotic episode and almost took my life. Most unusual for me cause I LOVE LIFE -
I eventually got better, but parts of me were missing.
I was smoke free for about 9 months, but, could not eat, sleep, even garden - my favorite thing in the world other than my children. I would walk in the garden and just stare at the rows....unable to accomplish much at all.
One day I found a pack that I had hidden in the freezer and - well, yea, I broke down and had one. I felt alive again. I felt alive again.
I promised myself that I would only smoke 3 a day. I did for about 3 weeks, then it went to 4, then 5, then 6 and I got scared again.
I was NOT going back to 1 and 1/2 pack again.....
I started to look into ecigs and read till I could read no more and bought my 1st set from Green Smoke.
At 1st it seemed to help, but I did not like the way I felt. I was spacey and unfocused.
But, I was determined. I started reading more and then I found this forum.
I was missing something...vaping made me feel like I was on chantix again - I needed to figure it out.
As I began to read, and read, and read, I found that although I was addicted to nicotine, I was also addicted to the other 6,000 or so chemicals in the analogs.
Ecigs were just not cutting it the way I thought ( hoped ) they would.
Then I found snus and snuff - the MAOI's I was missing and that my body craved.
I use snus and it calms me - in a way that smoking did, but, I needed the hand mouth thingy....really bad.. So, I vaped and felt the same....unfocused, blurry vision, irritable, depressed........like, well like, oh shoot - terrible!
With the help from some of the members here, especially Vaporer, I switched to VG.
The PG was the culprit!
Now I vape, use snus and snuff and Im a happy camper.
I still do my morning ciggy, but I have a feeling it will not be too long before thats over - it smells like poop and tastes terrible!
