so now what?

It's 3 o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep. don't know if it's because I know this is my last day of freedom, or because I sometimes just can't sleep, or ???

I'm feeling a loss. The origainl PIF (or pay it forward) thread is no more. I feel sad. Several reasons, actually. It was fun, while it lasted, no doubt. I made several new "friends", learned a BOAT load more info about vaping, and was able to pick up some interesting and cool things that I might not have gotten around to "getting" in a long time, if ever.
I was also able to give a few things that I didn't need, that I had extra of, and that hopefully could have helped someone else out too.
That's not to say the thread is gone. Oh, it's still there. But it's not the same. Something is missing...The life, the commeraderie. The fun has been SUCKED right out of it.
Of course we all need rules, especially when things get out of control, as they had been at times. But now it just seems sorta stagnant. I'm afraid to post to it, for fear that someone might come along and smack the back of my hands for talking in class. Or that someone else might "report" me, because they think they know me..

Do you? do you know I can't afford a mod? Or that I really really wanted to try one and now I can! Do you know I tried to offer more than what I took, because I didn't want it to seem as if I took more than I gave? Do you know I'm new too? Just cuz I like to talk, and joke around, and make friends, doesn't mean I'm a pro, it doens't mean I'm trying to take advantage of the system.
Yes, these are the things I worry about that keep me up till 3am in the morning...
Can I still post? Will someone think something, or read something that really isn't there?
I'm glad the thread was there. I enjoyed my spring break, made some friends, had some fun. Learned some new things.

..
Now what?

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you were one of the best parts of the PIF!!! I dont go there much anymore because it was not the trading that drew me there , It was the great funny people like you!!!
 
aw, sensay, you are such a sweetie :)
I miss catching up with everybody. It was nice to read back and see what everyone was doing. The chat place is ok, just checked it out. Only you can't see what you've missed! (like if "sensay" popped in and said hello :)
 
Hey, don't go away! Just being nosey, Last day of freedom?
Maybe the PIF thread will pick up again, I enjoy,also
 
Hey G!
I decided to go back (the draw was too much!) :lol: Of course when I did, I stalled the thread for 3 hours! hehe.. couldn't even give away my first born child ;) He'll work for room and board.... the food might cost more than it's worth, but he's cute too :D
 

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