Evenin' all

. Yeah Dred, you've had me rollin' mucho times

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a2d, sly has the lowdown on the sometimes painful process of recovery. Those who got hooked on just the nic got off easy with
PV's. I'm a lifelong self-medicater, so I'll always have some baggage. I'm thankful snus holds me together and I believe it gives me all I need, but I'm far from being squared away. I don't have the "get up and go" drive I did before and if I over-snus I'm almost sedate. I don't feel much motivation for anything but enjoying snus and posting on
ECF. It mimics depression, but I know it's not. The past motivation is in me, I just need to find the key that unlocks it, or maybe just accept what I have to, to work better with what I have. My life has changed drastically, as it did when I sobered-up 5 years ago, so I have to learn how to live all over again. It's slow going. Some days I coast and some days I learn something to incorporate into my life that makes things better. At times a smoke sounds like the best thing in the world, but as I learned (and sly, too) in 12 step programs, my mind is now able to latch on to all the reasons I don't wanna smoke, instead of thinking how good it might be. I also feel I need to be accountable to my forum family. That's not a judgment on anyone, but how can I fly around the forum singing the praises of smokeless tobacco if it isn't working for me?
No, I'm sure not where I'd like to be, but I'll get there God willing. I firmly believe I have all the tools, just gotta figure out how to use 'em to get the square
peg into that round hole. For you, my friend, maybe another tool is needed. Until you have what you need, I don't see a few smokes here and there causing more damage than bad breath. However things go,
we all understand the battle and the fact is,
we all know some have to fight harder than others. We're sure a unique bunch on this side of the tracks

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