End of story?

[Frankie]

"At or around this time, we made a healthy, informed, democratic decision to get back on drugs as soon as possible. It took about twelve hours."

Hello. The older-timers know me, for the new Vapers: I used to be here, vape and enjoy life without smoking, but then early this year my health forced me to do some things to keep going. One of them was quitting nicotine. Cold poultry. Success for the problems of that time, but...

I did give the ***dy abstinence a fair try. I was clear for 211 days. Suffered more or less the same amount of time. There were days I remembered to suffer only after several mid-morning hours (I never wake up early), but those were few. The depression, anxiety, general feeling of void in my life I tried to fill in vain by other things...

Well, I gave up. I made the aforementioned trainspotter´s decision last night. It did not take twelve hours, ´cause I remembered a tin of snuff in an old rucksack. I went to search for the treasure silently, not to wake up the kids. I found an onion which must have been older than 211 days in the ´sack and an almost full tin of Gawith Apricot.

I slept like a baby without the sleeping pill. I feel better than... err... six months and some weeks.

Gods of healthy lifestyles forgive me my sins. And go screw up someone else, please

This was my first attempt since 1986 and the first one only lasted a month, beacause I was young and eager to live life fully. Now I am not young any more and eager to survive, if possible.

I still have not touched an analog, though. So my non-smoker´s sign remains true, what do you think?

BTW for those who are trying to quit tobacco cigarettes using the electric ones: I do not crave smoking. I almost never did through that half a year of sobriety. I liked the smell of someone else smoking, but the void in my life seem to be nicely filled with smokeless nicotine.

Those who feel like telling me I was a wimp because I did not persevere, you are free to. I am rather exhilarated by feeling good at last. Thinking of trying some of the newer e-cigs, too

(On the other hand, if my health goes rapid downhill after my reunion with my vice, I will probably try another abstinence/suffering spell... or maybe just die and get over it.)

I do not drink or do drugs, so nic was my main vice. After trying life without (also without animal fat and percolator coffee, leavened dough foods etc. for some time, rather strict diet) I think I will be very suspicious of people who do not smoke or drink or have some other habit. VERY suspicious

[Frankie]

I forgot to mention my hair went half gray during the last 6 months. Really. More prominently on face for some reason. With a beard I look like... old. They might give the warning to quitters: Cold turkey might cause premature aging of your facial hair

[Deschain]

I don't know you, but these...

I think I will be very suspicious of people who do not smoke or drink or have some other habit. VERY suspicious

...are sage words my friend.

A man has got to have his vices.


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