I took a trip last night through the madness of my own mind. I flipped my moods and crashed from a manic state to the depths of the hell that tends to occupy my dark corners at times. Fate and life dictated that I skip a dose of my medication to be able to get up the next morning to take care of some errands and serve the family wishes. I was only to glad to offer the help. But no good deed goes unpunished for as soon as that happened I had the offer to cook a brisket. A all night affair as it is slow cooked over a fire. With my medication this cannot happen I have to be awake and check the fire every so often. So this dictated skipping another dose so the story goes. Again I was in a manic state, as I lay down to get some sleep I felt the icy grip of the monsters decent. As I fell into madness I don't remember the first hour and a half but after that this is a account of that madness. Some is how I felt at the moment others are just random thoughts and things I found interesting at the moment, one is even the first line from a metallica song that I love. If you have to ask about some of it you probably wont understand the reply you will get as some of it i barley remember writing....enjoy
The rage swells like a river itching to break the damn begging to be set free. To unleash the fury on all and none. Waiting on the nightmare to begin.
As the dreams last embers burn to ash the demons scream the last rites of a fools desire.....
Now I lay me down to rest....if I die before I wake......I pray the demons let my soul rest....for a tormented hell surely waits.....
Welcome to where time stands still....no one leaves and no one will.......
Listen to the evil one the winds moan. He will comfort you when the light fades....no need to hear.....your feelings are his when you cant feel....
What starts the slide into madness. Why must one slip from reality's grasp without the angels grip.......
How do you explain the voiceless whispers of loves full rage.........as the heart stops and the feelings end. Nothingness envelops the soul to take revenge.
The feelings fade as the doors fly shut. The tears of light shaded by the empty shadow waiting for the chance to kiss the madness
When the reckless madness has the door slammed the demons grip is icy as the cold claws creep into the shadows and beckon to be stroked.....
When will it be my turn to stand in heavens light and kneel at the alter of forgiveness, to bask in the love of the angels touch and feel the loving embrace.
The rage swells like a river itching to break the damn begging to be set free. To unleash the fury on all and none. Waiting on the nightmare to begin.
As the dreams last embers burn to ash the demons scream the last rites of a fools desire.....
Now I lay me down to rest....if I die before I wake......I pray the demons let my soul rest....for a tormented hell surely waits.....
Welcome to where time stands still....no one leaves and no one will.......
Listen to the evil one the winds moan. He will comfort you when the light fades....no need to hear.....your feelings are his when you cant feel....
What starts the slide into madness. Why must one slip from reality's grasp without the angels grip.......
How do you explain the voiceless whispers of loves full rage.........as the heart stops and the feelings end. Nothingness envelops the soul to take revenge.
The feelings fade as the doors fly shut. The tears of light shaded by the empty shadow waiting for the chance to kiss the madness
When the reckless madness has the door slammed the demons grip is icy as the cold claws creep into the shadows and beckon to be stroked.....
When will it be my turn to stand in heavens light and kneel at the alter of forgiveness, to bask in the love of the angels touch and feel the loving embrace.
