Dude...I'm so sorry. I've been in a similar situation, -and I wished vaping was around way back then. I chain smoked my way through it.No, please don't feel bad, really, I'm not right! I'm on enough pain meds to tranqulize a horse! Seriously, look up Fentynal sometime.
My Pancrease shut down in June because I was going through a 1.75l of whiskey every two days trying to control the pain!
I'm still a dual user, a pack or less a day, down from 3-5 PAD. So PLEASE, by no means take this as a pissing match or some such, I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone!