So I have MDD. My mom committed suicide several years ago while I was in nursing school. Nursing was a second career for me. Well I graduated with my 2 year agree, being second in my class out of 80 students. I was so proud. Then I went on to try for my bachelor's degree. All of a sudden one day while sitting in class my heart sped up really fast and I could feel all the blood rush to my face. I became dizzy and thought I was going to die. So I left class and rushed home, running two red lights on the way. It was terrible. Well that was the start of my panic disorder. I had every test run that they could to rule out a heart condition.
After I was diagnosed with paic disorder the depression came. Now it is a day to day thing with me. Some days are good, while others are sheer hell. Most of my symptoms are controlled with medications, but they really numb out my emotions and I feel like I am on autopilot most of the time.
So quitting smoking has been a real effort for me. The support I have found here has been a big help. Yes, I do have problems still, but I try to take it one day at a time. Things have gotten so bad I can't even go into Wal-Mart anymore, as there are too many people to deal with. Time will tell what happens to me. Just glad I found ECF.
After I was diagnosed with paic disorder the depression came. Now it is a day to day thing with me. Some days are good, while others are sheer hell. Most of my symptoms are controlled with medications, but they really numb out my emotions and I feel like I am on autopilot most of the time.
So quitting smoking has been a real effort for me. The support I have found here has been a big help. Yes, I do have problems still, but I try to take it one day at a time. Things have gotten so bad I can't even go into Wal-Mart anymore, as there are too many people to deal with. Time will tell what happens to me. Just glad I found ECF.