Major guy. A good friend of us

[imeothanasis]

This is a pm from Major. As you see this guy needs our support. We can make him feel better if we say "good morning" to him every day. We must be as close to him as possible

Sorry for this long note but is important please my good friend. I hate to say it but about 2 months ago I got tired of fighting just to live every day. I stopped doing everything and have just been laying in bed waiting for my time to end.

That isn't the real me and you know that but I must be honest to you. I even stopped making coils for my Ody and used my UFS with cartos. I had given up on the greatest gift God gives - life.

Yesterday, my wife made me open my mail and in one envelope was the top half of my 008 P&P, my Penelope. I don't know why for sure but I started to cry inside. I have always said every GG has a piece of Imeo in it and it is true.

I took it apart and saw the awesome design and work of it and the nice wings on the tank. I suddenly felt ashamed I had given up on life as I was holding a part of my good friend in my hand. I made myself get from bed.

I cleaned it and made a coil and the tired feeling from fighting for life seemed to go away. I had to write to not only say thank you for the gift of the P&P but for what you have shown me over the last year.

I was up all day today and am thinking more clear. I do know that your work has saved more than my lungs Imeo. I feel determined again to fight until my time is done. Sorry I got so awful with my thinking but I wanted you to know.

God willing, I will be back among my friends thanks to you. My wife thanks you as well. I have much to catch up on but I am determined to stay back on the path as a warrior and not go without a fight. I love you like a brother for all you do!

Steve

Good morning Steve. Life is good and we are all next to you buddy!

 

[stumpy]

be strong and enjoy what you have friends near and far i dont know who you are or what you have going on but god bless you and your family

 

[Mosin_Sergei]

Good morning Steve.
His example you show us that you are a warrior who never gives up
I respect you for your will and resistance

 

[Major]

Good morning to you my friends. I am happy to be back among you and look forward to getting back in the forums once again.

Everyone have a great day! I plan to!

 

[EsxPaul]

Good morning, Major.

I have certainly missed your presence here and I'm very happy to see you back

 

[Huffelpuff]

Hi Major, we all stand beside you. Glad that you are back.

 

[wyrm1973]

Good morning Steve

 

[dspin]

Glad to see your back again Major - Proteus #8 should be coming your way soon buddy

 

[CaptSteve]

Hey Steve, we miss you buddy get yourself out of bed vape your new Pene and talk to us. You lived your life on the streets fighting crime, chasing the bad guys and keeping folks safe. GUYS LIKE YOU DON'T GIVE UP.
I would be a proud man if I was half as strong as you are pal.

Now pick yourself up and talk with your friends here who need your company and miss you

 

[imeothanasis]

you see that you are not alone Major. Time to move your body and go out of a walk. We will still be here waiting for you to come back and have some fun!!!!!!!!!

 

[CaptSteve]

Brother Major we have a load of GG noobs here that need your advise and guidance so get busy pal

 

[Digitaltitan]

Good Morning from the East Coast Major!

Glad to hear you found a second Wind. You gotta fight until the end.

 

[MegaDark]

Good morning Major

Here is one noob like me as example

 

[critterbug]

I don't visit this little area anymore, but this issue and Major transcend genderphilia. Major is the main reason I ever posted on this subforum.

Major, your kindness has gone a long way and still has journeys to make and friends to which to tend in a way that only you can. Please do not undervalue your worth to the people around you.

You never mentioned suicide in your pm and I apologize in advance for aligning you with this, but the darkness you seem to be feeling I recognize as similar. My dad killed himself two years ago. He did everything he could to prepare us (his daughters) for it - requesting our "blessing", etc. It was something he had made peace with before he discussed it with us and my appeal to a different option was lost on him. He found it terribly selfish of me to still want him around when he didn't want to be here. I still get a kick and a smile out of his fatherly poise even in the face of despair. He was always very successful - former college football standout, excellent career, etc - but he truly sunk when he lost a lot of savings in the stock market a few years ago. He became very self-critical and depressed and his marriage suffered, his enthusiasm suffered, his life sunk and he did not have the energy to build around him again the life he had come to value as standard. You see, he felt that he no longer had any utility value. What he didn't realize in the depths of his depression was that his utility value was not strongest through his possessions or what he could give us materially; it was always strongest through the relationships he had with the people around him. That is all any of us truly has - the connection between ourselves and our loved ones. Please don't underestimate that when you find yourself thinking about what you used to do that you can't or don't any more. Or when you think of your value to other people and worry about being a burden. Caring - both physically and emotionally - is an act of love and loving is always a blessing and never a burden.

Major, I hope you don't mind that we are responding given that this was a PM to Imeo, but it's out here now, and I hope you know that you are cared for by people who aren't even active forum users and, no doubt, countless others. Your reach is wider than you know. Hang in there.

And, not to be crass or to encourage something to which you may be resistant, but depression becomes chemical, if it's not already. There are some great anti-depressants out there and there is no shame in trying them the same way one would take a med for cholesterol or some other cellular need. If you are having trouble seeing the value in any of this, then please consider talking to your family doctor about it. From the aforementioned anecdote, I know that you can't stop someone from ending it/willing it to end, but my hope is that you will continue to fight and use all of the resources available to you.

 

[Minus4]

Good morning Major another GG noob here! Welcome back stay strong there is a lot of people depending on you for your wisdom and insparation there are a lot of peoples lives left for you to touch my friend.

 

[blackwater]

Major,

Glad to see you back on your feet!!
You've helped me this past year probably more than you know!
Stay Strong.

Chris

 

[Moshmarr]

"Motivation is an external, temporary high that pushes you forward. Inspiration is a sustainable internal glow which pulls you forward."-
and you've been a true inspiration to me and so many others, Major. Now just trying to help return the favor.
I still donate to Childfund Intl. monthly because of your efforts, bud- and , as an accomplished cook,
I now donate my time locally to an organization that delivers free meals, love and support to folks with chronic and debilitating illnesses
who have no support network of their own. My time there has truly changed my life for the better, and your example of wisdom and kindness
inspired me to get out of myself and extend a hand to my neighbors here in the inner city who just need someone to care.
I just wanted you to know that, my friend; and it's a beautiful day indeed!
Great to see you here again

 

[dspin]

Brother Major we have a load of GG noobs here that need your advise and guidance so get busy pal

Yes Major, we have a major influx of noobs that need your help

 

[Juan-nitro]

Good morning Major

 

[Torqueguy]

Major. Not only the newbs..., little children need you pal. We need you too!
We don't get to choose our time in or out and our journey is by design from the Big Guy. Read Romans 8:28 - 8:30 and come back to us my friend.
Love and Blessings
Marcelo