Super upset

[LiquidElectron]

I relapsed this morning after 93 days.

I don't even understand why/how. I have so much gear/juice that it doesn't even make any sense. I just had this huge urge to go buy some and I did, and I had two of them. It was like I'd never even stopped.

I am so guilty right now that I can't even face anyone I know. I don't understand why this would even cross my mind after 3 months...much less actually do it. I mean, there are several steps...drive, spend money, drive back, smoke.

Very unhappy.

 

[Wow1420]

Pick up your PV and have a vape. You'll feel better, I promise.

 

[LiquidElectron]

Pick up your PV and have a vape. You'll feel better, I promise.

Way ahead of you there.

 

[Train2]

Bummer, but don't beat yourself up - think of all the cigs you have NOT smoked.
Hope it tasted nasty. That happens for lots of folks. Did they taste nasty?

 

[PaulBHC]

I had a few cigs along the way. Last one was a few months ago. Had to find out what they tasted like. Nothing like I remembered. The longer you go, the less you will get the urge but it will still hit you at times. Forgive yourself and move on.

 

[Cacique]

IMO, you shouldn't beat yourself up. It happened and you didn't like it, so I would enjoy your vape and remind yourself of how much you enjoy that and dislike the cigarettes.

Good luck on your journey, you're on your way there. Take it easy!

 

[Puff2K]

Was there anything in the back of your mind stress related? When I have an urge to smoke there's usually a stress or habit trigger. Good luck and don't feel too upset. You didn't smoke a lot more. It isn't a race or competition to be quit, and you can resume vaping as if nothing happened.

 

[roxynoodle]

Oh, heck, I'm almost up to a year, but I think about it sometimes.

 

[wheelie]

What ever you nicotine level is, have one system ready to go with higher nicotine level in it for those times. 1 1/2 years later my wife on occasion has to go to my vape stand and grab one of my higher nicotine level one to get through the urge. CHEERS! and good luck to you.

 

[horton]

Don't sweat it.... I just had a "crisis" after 4+ years. I am very upset with myself but understand a series of events lead me back to old habits. It was transitory and I just have to pick up the pieces and get straight again so to speak.
Same for you.... don't beat yourself up... we are all human and it's not the end of the world.
Pick yourself, brush off the ashes, wash the stink out of your clothes, and vape on......

 

[Wolfenstark]

You may have had the urge to do something you know you shouldn't and this was perhaps the least damaging thing to do in the short term ?
You could now use regret as another deterrent.

 

[AndriaD]

3 days, 3 weeks, 3 months -- all are dangerous times for ex-smokers. But I don't think 2 cigs constitutes a relapse -- an experiment, maybe. I'd suggest WTA for the dangerous times, but you're now past 3 months, and I think you nixed WTA when it was discussed previously. But I stand by my experience, that WTA can totally relieve cravings, or even the vague feeling that vaping just "isn't enough."

Andria

 

[SissySpike]

relapse is part of recovery now that you not smoking again I think you should treat your self to a new mod!

 

[jaytex1969]

You have SINNED! And you now must do your penance....

Join CASAA, if you haven't already. Then watch an hour of C_SPAN while caressing your mod....


Reverend Jay

 

[Bassnorma]

 

[Joseph Swint]

Like everyone else says, don't beat yourself up! Stuff happens to all of us.

 

[WorksForMe]

Three months? That's not very long. It was about a year before I realized I wasn't having cravings anymore.

I use to tell people that vaping is not exactly like smoking, but it's close enough to get used to it. Now I can't remember exactly what the difference is.

 

[cinetrope]

I always have an NET like Latakia from RBFS in my juice cabinet and I use it during weak moments...that plus the one hour round trip to the nearest store has kept me on the straight and narrow. Ultimately, you shouldn't feel bad about having a little relapse, I mean, it's not like you went to the Cigarette Forum to talk it out.

 

[DingerCPA]

I relapsed this morning after 93 days.

I don't even understand why/how. I have so much gear/juice that it doesn't even make any sense. I just had this huge urge to go buy some and I did, and I had two of them. It was like I'd never even stopped.

I am so guilty right now that I can't even face anyone I know. I don't understand why this would even cross my mind after 3 months...much less actually do it. I mean, there are several steps...drive, spend money, drive back, smoke.

Very unhappy.

Liquid, you're o.k. I'm about 14 months smoke-free, and every now and again, I wonder what it would be like to have a smoke. Since I smoked menthols, and no one around me does, it's a little easier to fight the urge to go buy a pack. I just wander into my "vape cave" and see what yum-i-licious-ness I can concoct that takes my mind off the real thing.

How many cigarettes did you NOT smoke in those 93 days? Helluva lot more than 2, right? Focus on the POSITIVES - and take it one day, one hour, one minute at a time

 

[Metal Storm]

I relapsed this morning after 93 days.

I don't even understand why/how. I have so much gear/juice that it doesn't even make any sense. I just had this huge urge to go buy some and I did, and I had two of them. It was like I'd never even stopped.

I am so guilty right now that I can't even face anyone I know. I don't understand why this would even cross my mind after 3 months...much less actually do it. I mean, there are several steps...drive, spend money, drive back, smoke.

Very unhappy.

Two cigs in three months is pretty good, IMO.

Weren't you talking about quitting vaping soon? Perhaps you were a little too confident in having it beat for good.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Throw the cigs away and get back to vaping. You'll be fine.