Be dead honest with me , are you really feeling like that , do you really feel people are plotting against you? You don't see or hear things that aren't there do you ? If you do i hope they gave you a certain type of medication and it's not an anti depressant.
I am dead honest and that's how i feel. All the time. I may getting delusional, I definetely am hallucinating, I am paranoid. I see things and hear things that aren't there. I don't know what's real. Sometimes I lose control over my actions and thoughts. But nothing severe. I've been inside with my family all weekend.
They sent me home with anti depressant and anti psychotics. Just to test if i react to them. Appointment tomorrow and more meds to take home. And I will be talking about everything which has happened over the weekend and we will hopefully find a way in the end.
Trust me, it's much better than getting involuntary institutionalized . That really could be a great decision on your part , i wouldn't hesitate if i was as in bad shape as you sound.
Vapez