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[Doffy]

Spoiler

Case manager today

I wrote to her last week. Which is easier for me than spoken. They have a no email and no snail mail policy. So I dropped it at the desk

It was 50/50 fear of psychologists and fear and sleep. Which includes talking to psychologists about sleep. And some reasons why

And saying that I am ready to have one write to me. But not f2f, because scared

Happy Wednesday

 

[TamiPac]

Spoiler

Case manager today

I wrote to her last week. Which is easier for me than spoken. They have a no email and no snail mail policy. So I dropped it at the desk

It was 50/50 fear of psychologists and fear and sleep. Which includes talking to psychologists about sleep. And some reasons why

And saying that I am ready to have one write to me. But not f2f, because scared

Happy Wednesday

I'm so confused.

 

[Doffy]

I'm so confused.

All good

I can stick with beach pictures, if you want?

The discussing sleep with a psychologist might have to start with watching a YouTube compilation of dog's snoring together. Or photos

Or otherwise just a few sessions promoting safety

I see intern type Dr in 2 weeks. Psychiatrist in June. They all want me to add a psychologist to that. And social support

 

[TamiPac]

All good

I can stick with beach pictures, if you want?

The discussing sleep with a psychologist might have to start with watching a YouTube compilation of dog's snoring together. Or photos

Or otherwise just a few sessions promoting safety

I see intern type Dr in 2 weeks. Psychiatrist in June. They all want me to add a psychologist to that. And social support

What I'm confused about is the sleep issue. I didn't realize it was that bad.

 

[Doffy]

What I'm confused about is the sleep issue. I didn't realize it was that bad.

it is lots of things

Spoiler

primary school, i missed so much school from staying up to read at night that dhs tried to take me off dogmum
high school, i was living with another family. Tough to explain, but kinda coerced into night shift after school hours. So 2 hrs a night through teens
uni was similar, my body clock didn't adjust
bunch of other stuff
and i think my thinky thing worries that i will sleep through another dogmum fall

but, i don't know, tami

psychologists dish out generic advice to have set routine and read 20 minutes before making it dark

which implies wanting sleep

medical doctors add sleeping meds to actually useful meds. So i avoid nighty meds in general to avoid sleep ones (have let them know that i won't take sleep meds now)

sorry

i have nobody much to talk to

and i'm finding most who i have even distant contact with think generic advice that pertains depression applies to all mental illness

case manager goes on maternity leave after today, and we had just established trust

 

[TamiPac]

it is lots of things

Spoiler

primary school, i missed so much school from staying up to read at night that dhs tried to take me off dogmum
high school, i was living with another family. Tough to explain, but kinda coerced into night shift after school hours. So 2 hrs a night through teens
uni was similar, my body clock didn't adjust
bunch of other stuff
and i think my thinky thing worries that i will sleep through another dogmum fall

but, i don't know, tami

psychologists dish out generic advice to have set routine and read 20 minutes before making it dark

which implies wanting sleep

medical doctors add sleeping meds to actually useful meds. So i avoid nighty meds in general to avoid sleep ones (have let them know that i won't take sleep meds now)

sorry

i have nobody much to talk to

and i'm finding most who i have even distant contact with think generic advice that pertains depression applies to all mental illness

case manager goes on maternity leave after today, and we had just established trust

I don't think people would purposely give bad advice but are just trying to help. Most really don't understand mental issues.

 

[Doffy]

I don't think people would purposely give bad advice but are just trying to help. Most really don't understand mental issues.

Not knowing is fine

Pretending that do is different

 

[Doffy]

Beach beckons

 

[Doffy]

2 days worth

 

[Doffy]

dunno what to say about yesterday

i told case manager that she looked more rested yesterday. She cracked up and said that she is spent. Desperate for maternity leave from next week, and this 3rd pregnancy has been the toughest. So i guess she just had what people describe as pregnancy glow, and whatever hormones baby was pumping yesterday had her looking pretty?

she said that some stuff i wrote to her and doctor mean that i have to do a little interview to gauge my risk to the community

she said that new case manager will work on distress tolerance with me, before maybe introducing a psychologist. Who will then just sit in on an appointment. Generally be human and approachable, and say a bit about what she does. Tayla said that the public hospital ones are more battle hardened and prepared for more severe cases than private clinics, who do lots of job stress, grief and mild anxiety stuff

she apologised that i haven't been given concrete care plan yet. But prolly longer than the pencilled in 3 months with them. And that diagnosis wasn't set yet. Just wibbly wobbly diagnosy wosy thing

she assured me that i get a say in everything. That my file would note that i need less medicatin side effects, but ones that actually work. So look into newer ones

so

1 sort meds
2 work on distress tolerance
3 slowly add stuff like talk and lifestyle and food etc. Slowly
4 (lots of softeners like maybe if you are ready) approach trauma stuff, then added groan and "groan, your trauma"

 

[Doffy]

Coriander chutney
Garlic
Black pepper

Broccolini
Bull's horn chilli

Kale

Red wine
Lite soy

Water

Rice is almost on point, I never measure anything and I should have upped Water amount

Pretty OK. Very quick

 

[Doffy]

https://youtube.com/shorts/fwWghs9TnX4?feature=share

plumber coming tomorrow

 

[Doffy]

getting new system

which means, since new ones you can no longer bypass child safety temp limits, that the wrath of DogMum will reign upon dogMan

mum has a stress fracture in her pinkie toe too, so extra scary atm

 

[Doffy]

the laminated wood is someone who i went to art school with. We had an exhibition together in brunswick years ago

 

[Doffy]

we made this as a group of 5 for the show

he did plywood waves to echo gallery space

 

[Doffy]

 

[Doffy]

 

[X-Puppy]

Crickets...


I miss the day's when I could hardly keep up with this thread.

 

[Doffy]

probably boring

but, this is what my maternal grandparents did. Soldier-Settler scheme (Blockies)

PTSD wasn't recognised until later. So, returning soldiers were just viewed as often alcoholic, often homeless burdens. The government set up the scheme to "gift" (actually interest free loan with repayments as a percentage of farm profit) land in the outback. Lots of the land was unworkable. My grands were lucky to get a block in Robinvale, which saw about 3 productive months a year, and at least able to grow enough to feed the family the rest

Anzac Day 2022 revives memories of Victoria's ghost town Annuello settled by war veterans - ABC News

 

[Alexander Mundy]

probably boring

but, this is what my maternal grandparents did. Soldier-Settler scheme (Blockies)

PTSD wasn't recognised until later. So, returning soldiers were just viewed as often alcoholic, often homeless burdens. The government set up the scheme to "gift" (actually interest free loan with repayments as a percentage of farm profit) land in the outback. Lots of the land was unworkable. My grands were lucky to get a block in Robinvale, which saw about 3 productive months a year, and at least able to grow enough to feed the family the rest

Anzac Day 2022 revives memories of Victoria's ghost town Annuello settled by war veterans - ABC News

I found it interesting. Kinda depressing, but interesting.