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  1. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.
    I have, up till about 5 minutes ago, been smoke free for over 2 weeks. But I lit up an analog. It's been a REALLY bad day. MAJOR huge family issues. I'm incredibly stressed out/sad/depressed. Super bad crap is about to come down on me. Sooo, I lit up a cig. I only took a few drags then put it out. It just didn't taste good. But I just could use a little encouragement right now. I know I don't want to become a smoker again but.... It has been such a "comfort" to me for so long... I could always chain smoke whenever "life" got rough. The 510 just isn't helping me "deal" tonight. Please help me remember why I want to quit.:(
     
  2. TheTout

    TheTout Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Sep 21, 2009
    Dearborn, Michigan
    You can do it!!! Wait 5 minutes, vape something just a little stronger nicotine. Remember you don't want to wake up feeling like you did before you stopped smoking..

    Think positive thoughts and sometimes taking a walk can help!!
     
  3. Kimmberlee

    Kimmberlee Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Dec 14, 2008
    MI
    You can do this!!! I quit 11 months ago and I am not looking back. I have had cravings, however, vaping has saved my life.

    My Mom was diagnosed with Emphysema and quit over a year ago!!! Her Dr. said she is doing fantastic and was really impressed with her e-cig.

    We have since moved up to a mod. You may want to check out the Xhaler at nhaler.com. It is a GREAT mod and so much better than the smaller batteries that you have to constantly charge. There are many threads about it as well.

    Drew (at Nhaler) has great juices too. The best I have had so far. :p

    I also do business with Puresmoker and have a Prodigy and a Protege. The throat hit and vapor that you get from a mod will absolutely help you quit for good. Especially during stressful times. :rolleyes:

    I smoked a pack a day and probably 2 packs on a Friday night if I was having cocktails. I could have NEVER quit without this. I thought that drinking and not smoking would have been really tough.... the smell of smoke actually makes me gag now. Go figure!!!:D

    You CAN do this. Hang in there. We are here for you!!!
     
  4. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.
    Thanks for responding Tout. I'm afraid the strongest nic juice i've got is 24 mg. It's not helping right now. I'm "sucking it down like coca cola" but it doesn't seem to help. Plus I'm soooo disappointed in myself for "giving in" to the stress. Feel like a real failure....
     
  5. wgm

    wgm Full Member ECF Veteran

    Oct 11, 2009
    SW Florida
    Just a bump in the road, jg. You'll get through whatever it is you're dealing with and will come out on the other side a better person for it.

    Hang in there....

    Will
     
  6. Madame Psychosis

    Madame Psychosis Super Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 18, 2009
    East Coast Gypsy
    Being in a crappy place mentally and emotionally makes even a small mistake seem like a disaster, and then it's so easy to generalize it to everything about life/your actions/the world....and think you're a failure.

    And lighting up the first, and being 'already a failure', makes it easier to light up the second....and those dark nights spiral off. Heart goes out to you on that.

    Practically speaking, keep your mouth and hands occupied. Gum. A beverage. A snack. Whatever. Or go someplace where you can't smoke. (Walking for me is exactly when I smoke, so that never helps!) Watch something funny on the computer. Get into a heated discussion where you can't stop typing. Shop online (for 36mg liquid or a new mod!) or anything else distracting.

    Just because your stress is overriding your resolution doesn't mean your resolution is weak; it means your stress is strong and your strategy just needs some tweaking. It'll make for a nasty self-hating cycle if you assume you must succeed at quitting exactly with the method you've been trying.
    (There's trying a higher mg, snus, an HV device, a therapist, Zyban....Or whatever solution you find. If one doesn't work, try another.)


    Hope this isn't too cheesy, but I like Ralph Waldo Emerson:
    Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
     
  7. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.

    Thanks Madam. That helped. No, it's NOT too cheesy. I'm in a "dark place" right now and I very much apreciate poetry ( Poe rules) I love the Emerson quote. Thanks so much for replying. Right now I just need to know that other people UNDERSTAND the struggle. It's really been pretty easy quitting up till now. I haven't wanted to smoke after having my 510 for a while. But now I have all this MAJOR STRESS. I always turned to chain-smoking in the past...... just need to find some new coping mechanisms.......
     
  8. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.
    Yeah, smoking is NOT the answer. Just lit up another analog. IT TOTALLY SUCKED!!!! Tasted like crap.Put it out after about 2 drags. So now I am sucking on my 510 like a fiend. MUCH more pleasurable but I still want that "good old feeling" the cigs used to give me. I guess that's gone forever. Probably a good thing. I guess it's time to "put on my big girl panties and deal with it..."
     
  9. smokinridge

    smokinridge Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 8, 2009
    Hendersonville, NC
    From one Tar Heel to another....stay strong!:D Get some 36mg juice from Chris at My Freedom Smokes. It's great juice and I have been ordering on Sunday and getting it Tuesday!
    Sometimes "dark times" come along to remind us how good things are the rest of the time, even when they don't seem to be! It really will get better. When you can get yourself to a place that you see that everyday we are alive is a GIFT, it is easier to face the dark times. None of us are sure that we have a tomorrow! Be GREATFUL for each day!
    "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, thats why they call it the present!"
    PM me if you need someone to talk to!;)
     
  10. JinniVapour

    JinniVapour Moved On

    Dec 15, 2009
    NYC
    You will come back here and look at your posts, and tell yourself.. "wow, I must've been really REALLY stressed at that time!!"..

    Just take things easy, we all face problems, we WILL all keep getting problems outta no-where in our daily lives.. you ever had a day without problems? ever met or heard of ANYONE who doesn't have problems?

    The trick is, doing what we want to do regardless of our problems.. that's where the real fight lies.. ;)

    Good luck and keep in touch!
     
  11. TaketheRedPill

    TaketheRedPill Super Member Verified Member ECF Veteran

    Aug 27, 2009
    Southern California
    "MAJOR huge family issues. I'm incredibly stressed out/sad/depressed. "

    ok - what you need to do is up your endorphine levels (feel good hormones) - that means, walking, running, punching pillows, whatever you can to work up a good sweat.

    Don't beat yourself up for reaching for a cigarette. Doesn't mean you're backto being a smoker, just that you had a weak moment and that's ok. Next time, think 'sweat' instead of 'smoke' and you'll have a direction to head towards besides the cigarette pack.

    Keep up the good work!

    TTRP
     
  12. sstambo

    sstambo Super Member Verified Member ECF Veteran

    Supporting member
    Sep 25, 2009
    Cape Coma, Florida
    This to shall pass.
    You can do it! Don't beat yourself up som much about having a few puffs. It tasted yucky and it didn't do what it used to for you. That's a silver lining!
    I think you should get a HV mod when you can & some of the 36mg juice as suggested.;)

    CYBER HUGS!!!
     
  13. Snarkyone

    Snarkyone Super Member ECF Veteran

    Try to remember the reasons you wanted to quit in the first place. We all go through stressful times, and for most of our lives we had the crutch of a cigarette. I would suggest that you use the E-Cig as much as you need to, don't worry about it too much. If you have to have a 30 minute vaping session to get you back on an even keel than vape away. Try to remember that the scars we carry with us are a map of our past not the map of our future, and that nothing can make you do something that you choose not to do. You can do this.
     
  14. Katmar

    Katmar Vaping Master ECF Veteran

    Sep 19, 2009
    Pittsburgh, Pa
    Don't beat yourself up for lighting up. Happens a lot in this process. I reached a point where taking a "hit" of an analog just tasted nasty, but I still did it. Then the craving just went away without much ado, which shocked me after 46 years!! Now, I crave may vape and am healthier for it.
    Hang on...
     
  15. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.
    Thanks so much, all of you, for the support and encouragement. I thought you might like to know that after I put out that first cig (after 2 drags) I paced for a while, surfed the forum a bit, and I lit up not one, but 2 more cigs. BUT I put them BOTH out after only 2 drags each. They were just awefull and nasty and didn't make me feel better, just made me feel even WORSE. Apparently I need to learn some new stress coping mechanisms cuz chain smoking is out. My last pack of analogs ( and it was a full pack except for those 3 I tried to smoke) is currently on it's way to the dump.
    I'm kinda glad I had my "crisis". It proved to me that I DONT want/need cigs anymore. Good friends are better than analogs-thank you all for being that for me.
     
  16. ladysolitary85

    ladysolitary85 Super Member ECF Veteran

    Oct 31, 2009
    California
    You can do this! I'm trying to battle the same battle myself.

    My guy lost his job 6 months ago and the weight of being the only support is killing me. I'm lucky enough my landlady has allowed me to make payments with my rent. Between two jobs I'm working part-time shifts. It's been hard I've only been vaping for a month and still have 5 or 6 analogs a day. I'm not proud of it and I can't wait for the day when I can say "I'm smoke-free".

    It will happen! You just got to believe in yourself and try a higher mg. That's what I need to do but I need to find the right e-liquid. I'm afraid of wasting money on something I don't like. But, I have to take risks.

    Be strong!
     
  17. jghunter1

    jghunter1 Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Nov 13, 2009
    Denver, N.C.
    Lady solitary: Thank SOOOO MUCH!!! I too am supporting "my guy". He's in school/getting a degree, trying to improve his chances of getting a decent job after being laid off from an awesome/high paying/union/ manufacturing position. It totally SUCKS to be the "breadwinner".... I guess I was spoiled before...... MY guy has been out of work since Oct of 08. We BOTH look forward to the day he's out of school and earning a DECENT PAYCHECK!!!!!

    As far as analogs go- I think anyone who can get to 5 or less per day is doing AWESOME. Sure, NO analogs is better but there is not a D@m# thing wrong witn cuttting all that tar and carcinogens back to only 1/4 ANY progress is better then none at all.
     
  18. ladysolitary85

    ladysolitary85 Super Member ECF Veteran

    Oct 31, 2009
    California
    lol I was a pack a day smoker for 8 yrs. My first e-cig was SE and as peeved as I am with getting screwed financially with them, at least they've opened my eyes and helped me this far. I also have a 510 and a Blu cig.
     
  19. ShakaCthulu

    ShakaCthulu Full Member

    Sep 4, 2009
    North Florida, USA
    This will happen. Don't be too hard on yourself. It's not just the nicotine, but smoking also puts a monoamine oxidase inhibitor in your body which you don't get from vaping to my knowledge. It's an antidepressant that you're having to adjust to not having. It's not easy, just hang in there and keep stubbing those xxxxers out and you'll be there before long.
     
  20. x3x

    x3x Senior Member ECF Veteran

    Dec 21, 2009
    california
    You can do it !! i've been quiting for almost a year now, even tho i'm still thinking about it sometime when drinking w/ friends. Try to do things like working out/lift weight etc...taking a nap work too and stay away from coffee and alcohol. Be strong and GoodLuck

    P.S no one can help you , only u can :)
     
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