Aww, Kaezz! Prayers going up!G'mornin', y'all... had to come in to work today because I blew off Thursday. At least they are still letting me make up my hours.
I just couldn't cope the other night. Things just kinda crept up on me and kicked me right in the feels. Not sure where it all came from, but I was sitting around the house and just got floored by thoughts and memories. Then, of course, I decided that I needed a drink to kinda chill and mellow a bit... apparently Scotch isn't the drink that does that for me. And most of a bottle of Glenlivet certainly isn't the answer... I'm starting to come back around to my normal feeling self, but still not quite back there yet. Hopefully I'll be able to go see Paige tomorrow. Haven't seen her in close to two weeks and I think that the solitude has gotten to me. Maybe I need to find some other people to hang out with so that can try to not get so deep into my own head. I absolutely hate this feeling... I'm a freakin' Aquarius, I'm not built to handle emotions!
G'mornin', y'all... had to come in to work today because I blew off Thursday. At least they are still letting me make up my hours.
I just couldn't cope the other night. Things just kinda crept up on me and kicked me right in the feels. Not sure where it all came from, but I was sitting around the house and just got floored by thoughts and memories. Then, of course, I decided that I needed a drink to kinda chill and mellow a bit... apparently Scotch isn't the drink that does that for me. And most of a bottle of Glenlivet certainly isn't the answer... I'm starting to come back around to my normal feeling self, but still not quite back there yet. Hopefully I'll be able to go see Paige tomorrow. Haven't seen her in close to two weeks and I think that the solitude has gotten to me. Maybe I need to find some other people to hang out with so that can try to not get so deep into my own head. I absolutely hate this feeling... I'm a freakin' Aquarius, I'm not built to handle emotions!
) Reach out - we're here for ya. I'm only 9 digits away..... You may need to ride a roller coaster for a bit - you've been so focused on others that you haven't focused on yourself.
I'll have one slightly darker batch from each of this week's beans.
Anyone know if kaz or krusty like a darker bean?
For any of the newer regular irregulars: I enjoy home roasting, typically 10 9oz mason jars of beans a week, send out a few sets to people. If anyone wants to try some, let me know. Its a PIF thing, fun [emoji5] I typically roast high flavor beans (they're exotics, from smaller farms), chocolate and fruit notes, fairly light roasts. I send them out as whole beans or whatever grind a person wants.
Good morning, Love. There is no right way to grieve (and I believe you've discovered that Glenlivet is a "wrong" way....
Love you....
Damn, and I thought Woodford Reserve was good.... Honestly, the Glenlivet wasn't bad, I just drank way too much of it at one sitting. Very little walking involved afterwards... This roller coaster sucks though. But, you're right. I definitely need to get focus back on myself and finding what makes me smile. There's gotta be some more joy out there somewhere.
ahhhhhhh so that's what he's good at. He sure stunk at being an NFL head coach when he coached my Dolphins. Of course, they stink no matter who's coachin them.
Too much don't give a schitt-itis on that team. Not to mention that when we do get good talent.......they trade em away to other teams who them use them to come back and kick our butts. Unfortunately it's all got to come out and be dealt with hun. You know it's not gonna be easy or quick. And it can't be done by trying to find things to make you happy for a bit and pretending the feelings aren't there. Nothing wrong at all with finding things that make you happy, but it won't last til these feelings are processed and dealt with. Even though you did grieve a lot before, there is a finality to this. My mother was rarely in my life, and when she was, she mostly ended up doing me harm. Most of my life I grieved the loss of a mother, so when she died, there was not a lot more to grieve. But then, we weren't close. But I did find that there was the finality to grieve. After she died, I realized that although I knew better, while she was alive there had been some tiny bit of hope way deep down that maybe someday, somehow I'd find out that she cared. Her death extinguished that bit of hope that I hadn't even known was there. With you it's much different because you loved Tricia so much. So even though you grieved before, unfortunately there is still more to go and it usually comes out in stages over a fairly long period of time. Moving on is good, but moving on too quickly usually isn't a good thing. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm trying to lecture, cuz that is surely not my intent. Just trying to help. I do wish you'd call one of us instead next time you feel like reaching for a bottle. You know I'm available anytime day or night, and I'm sure others are as well.G'mornin', y'all... had to come in to work today because I blew off Thursday. At least they are still letting me make up my hours.
I just couldn't cope the other night. Things just kinda crept up on me and kicked me right in the feels. Not sure where it all came from, but I was sitting around the house and just got floored by thoughts and memories. Then, of course, I decided that I needed a drink to kinda chill and mellow a bit... apparently Scotch isn't the drink that does that for me. And most of a bottle of Glenlivet certainly isn't the answer... I'm starting to come back around to my normal feeling self, but still not quite back there yet. Hopefully I'll be able to go see Paige tomorrow. Haven't seen her in close to two weeks and I think that the solitude has gotten to me. Maybe I need to find some other people to hang out with so that can try to not get so deep into my own head. I absolutely hate this feeling... I'm a freakin' Aquarius, I'm not built to handle emotions!
How are you doing sweetie?? I know you have family, but same goes for you if you ever wanna talk.
How are you doing sweetie?? I know you have family, but same goes for you if you ever wanna talk.
Me being an Aquarius too I get it. All your friends here hit the nail on the head. These feelings creep up on us when we least expect them. It's ok. Ride the wave. It wil get better but they will still hit you from time to time.G'mornin', y'all... had to come in to work today because I blew off Thursday. At least they are still letting me make up my hours.
I just couldn't cope the other night. Things just kinda crept up on me and kicked me right in the feels. Not sure where it all came from, but I was sitting around the house and just got floored by thoughts and memories. Then, of course, I decided that I needed a drink to kinda chill and mellow a bit... apparently Scotch isn't the drink that does that for me. And most of a bottle of Glenlivet certainly isn't the answer... I'm starting to come back around to my normal feeling self, but still not quite back there yet. Hopefully I'll be able to go see Paige tomorrow. Haven't seen her in close to two weeks and I think that the solitude has gotten to me. Maybe I need to find some other people to hang out with so that can try to not get so deep into my own head. I absolutely hate this feeling... I'm a freakin' Aquarius, I'm not built to handle emotions!
