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[skullblade789]

Hey y'all... just so as to not leave you guys and gals out of the loop, I feel that I need to let y'all know what is going on in my life right now. Thursday I'll be taking off work so that I can take my Bride in for CT and MRI scans, then Friday we will see the oncologist to discuss the aforementioned scans and get her twelfth chemo treatment of this second regimen. To be quite honest, things are not looking good. She is experiencing more pain than she was previously feeling. She is also a lot more tired and worn down than I've ever seen her. She is still trying to maintain an air of positive spirits, but I fear that she is realizing that she is nearing the end of what she can handle. This chemo regimen has been particularly hard on her; from the very first treatment, it has been brutal. I spoke with her best friend this morning, apparently my Bride told her that this may be her last chemo treatment. Not because the doctor will call it done, but because she feels that she cannot endure it any longer. She alluded to the feeling that she'd rather have a good year or so of feeling relatively normal (even if it shortened her life span) than to have two more years of feeling as she currently does. I cannot say that I blame her; I'd never blame her for feeling this way. But hearing this is a hard pill to swallow. Of course, I'll maintain a strong front for her benefit. It's all I know to do. But even still, my heart is heavy. I do not know what the scans will show; I do not know what decisions will be made. I know that I love my wife and I will support her in whatever she may choose. And I don't know what else to say... I'm sorry for dragging down the mood, but I also felt that y'all should know what's going on and where my head is right now. I'm trying to stay as positive as I possibly can, I'm trying to enjoy the time I have left with her. I'm trying to stay strong... honestly, all I really want to do is crawl into a cave and wish for it to all just go away. I know that isn't going to happen, but one can still wish, right?

Check your PM's brother. Also, everyone of us will be there every step of the way if you need something.

 

[tejas]

Hey y'all... just so as to not leave you guys and gals out of the loop, I feel that I need to let y'all know what is going on in my life right now. Thursday I'll be taking off work so that I can take my Bride in for CT and MRI scans, then Friday we will see the oncologist to discuss the aforementioned scans and get her twelfth chemo treatment of this second regimen. To be quite honest, things are not looking good. She is experiencing more pain than she was previously feeling. She is also a lot more tired and worn down than I've ever seen her. She is still trying to maintain an air of positive spirits, but I fear that she is realizing that she is nearing the end of what she can handle. This chemo regimen has been particularly hard on her; from the very first treatment, it has been brutal. I spoke with her best friend this morning, apparently my Bride told her that this may be her last chemo treatment. Not because the doctor will call it done, but because she feels that she cannot endure it any longer. She alluded to the feeling that she'd rather have a good year or so of feeling relatively normal (even if it shortened her life span) than to have two more years of feeling as she currently does. I cannot say that I blame her; I'd never blame her for feeling this way. But hearing this is a hard pill to swallow. Of course, I'll maintain a strong front for her benefit. It's all I know to do. But even still, my heart is heavy. I do not know what the scans will show; I do not know what decisions will be made. I know that I love my wife and I will support her in whatever she may choose. And I don't know what else to say... I'm sorry for dragging down the mood, but I also felt that y'all should know what's going on and where my head is right now. I'm trying to stay as positive as I possibly can, I'm trying to enjoy the time I have left with her. I'm trying to stay strong... honestly, all I really want to do is crawl into a cave and wish for it to all just go away. I know that isn't going to happen, but one can still wish, right?

I don't know what to say. My sympathies. I almost lost my wife to a heart attack, and then again on her birthday in 2012, she collapsed, unable to breathe (I quit smoking the next day).
What you two are going through, must be hell.

 

[Sir Kadly]

Thank you, Kev. I saw ya over there. And thank you. In my heart, I know that it's OK to not be strong... but my head just argues back too much. I guess what I mean is that I want to be as strong for her as I can... fortunately, I feel safe enough here to let that facade fade a bit. I know you guys understand, and I love you all for that!

Different people mean different things when they talk about being strong so I don't want to assume. Often when we men say it we are talking about trying not to be emotional. At least for my wife and I, there have been times when what she really needed was for my to cry with her rather than be strong if that makes sense. I guess what I'm trying to say is there is nothing wrong with letting her see what you are feeling.

 

[Kaezziel]

Check your PM's brother. Also, everyone of us will be there every step of the way if you need something.

Gotcha, Brother. And thank you. I'm making it through one day at a time right now, but I'll definitely let y'all know if or when I need a hand. Love you guys!

I don't know what to say. My sympathies. I almost lost my wife to a heart attack, and then again on her birthday in 2012, she collapsed, unable to breathe (I quit smoking the next day).
What you two are going through, must be hell.

That's some scary stuff right there, Brother. I've been there, myself. Nine days in the ICU before they'd let her go home... something about extremely high potassium caused her blood pressure to drop to dangerous levels. They were threatening dialysis to flush her system, and heart attack being a serious risk... I don't remember it all exactly, it was a bit of a blur... as I'm sure you can relate. You and yours will be in my prayers that she stays healthy and strong, man...

Different people mean different things when they talk about being strong so I don't want to assume. Often when we men say it we are talking about trying not to be emotional. At least for my wife and I, there have been times when what she really needed was for my to cry with her rather than be strong if that makes sense. I guess what I'm trying to say is there is nothing wrong with letting her see what you are feeling.

I know what ya mean, man. You're probably right, and when I feel like it's needed, I'll let her see more of what I'm feeling... for now, it just seems like she needs me to be there for her and carry her through more than anything else. We've had those brief moments and conversations where we've both cried and cussed... you're exactly right, sometimes that is exactly what is needed.

 

[LynnNC]

Sweetheart, as we've talked about before I've been where you are, well kinda with my mom, not my wife, so anytime you need to talk, rant, rave or anything else you need, just let me know. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. ((((((Big Hugs hon))))))

 

[Kaezziel]

Sweetheart, as we've talked about before I've been where you are, well kinda with my mom, not my wife, so anytime you need to talk, rant, rave or anything else you need, just let me know. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. ((((((Big Hugs hon))))))

Thank you, Sweetpea! I know where to find ya, and I truly appreciate your love and prayers. I honestly don't know how I could make it through all of this without all of y'all... for a bunch of people I've never really "met", y'all are closer to me than my actual family.

 

[Kaezziel]

To quote my Bruddah... "LeSigh..." Tis time for me to pack up my crap and head for the house. Thank y'all so much for bearing with me and listening to my drama. I'll be alright, just wanted to get it out there... I'll be back 'round tomorrow with my usual cheer if at all possible, then back out for da next coupla days. I'll give y'all an update on what the doc says and what decisions are made after that. LOVE Y'ALL!!

 

[LynnNC]

Love you too brother! I hope you have a great night!

 

[Kaezziel]

Love you too brother! I hope you have a great night!

You too, Darlin'! See ya tomorrow!

 

[DingerCPA]

Hey y'all... just so as to not leave you guys and gals out of the loop, I feel that I need to let y'all know what is going on in my life right now. Thursday I'll be taking off work so that I can take my Bride in for CT and MRI scans, then Friday we will see the oncologist to discuss the aforementioned scans and get her twelfth chemo treatment of this second regimen. To be quite honest, things are not looking good. She is experiencing more pain than she was previously feeling. She is also a lot more tired and worn down than I've ever seen her. She is still trying to maintain an air of positive spirits, but I fear that she is realizing that she is nearing the end of what she can handle. This chemo regimen has been particularly hard on her; from the very first treatment, it has been brutal. I spoke with her best friend this morning, apparently my Bride told her that this may be her last chemo treatment. Not because the doctor will call it done, but because she feels that she cannot endure it any longer. She alluded to the feeling that she'd rather have a good year or so of feeling relatively normal (even if it shortened her life span) than to have two more years of feeling as she currently does. I cannot say that I blame her; I'd never blame her for feeling this way. But hearing this is a hard pill to swallow. Of course, I'll maintain a strong front for her benefit. It's all I know to do. But even still, my heart is heavy. I do not know what the scans will show; I do not know what decisions will be made. I know that I love my wife and I will support her in whatever she may choose. And I don't know what else to say... I'm sorry for dragging down the mood, but I also felt that y'all should know what's going on and where my head is right now. I'm trying to stay as positive as I possibly can, I'm trying to enjoy the time I have left with her. I'm trying to stay strong... honestly, all I really want to do is crawl into a cave and wish for it to all just go away. I know that isn't going to happen, but one can still wish, right?

Love you, Brother..... Praying you and your Bride peace....

We got your six....

 

[wvducklady]

Hey y'all... just so as to not leave you guys and gals out of the loop, I feel that I need to let y'all know what is going on in my life right now. Thursday I'll be taking off work so that I can take my Bride in for CT and MRI scans, then Friday we will see the oncologist to discuss the aforementioned scans and get her twelfth chemo treatment of this second regimen. To be quite honest, things are not looking good. She is experiencing more pain than she was previously feeling. She is also a lot more tired and worn down than I've ever seen her. She is still trying to maintain an air of positive spirits, but I fear that she is realizing that she is nearing the end of what she can handle. This chemo regimen has been particularly hard on her; from the very first treatment, it has been brutal. I spoke with her best friend this morning, apparently my Bride told her that this may be her last chemo treatment. Not because the doctor will call it done, but because she feels that she cannot endure it any longer. She alluded to the feeling that she'd rather have a good year or so of feeling relatively normal (even if it shortened her life span) than to have two more years of feeling as she currently does. I cannot say that I blame her; I'd never blame her for feeling this way. But hearing this is a hard pill to swallow. Of course, I'll maintain a strong front for her benefit. It's all I know to do. But even still, my heart is heavy. I do not know what the scans will show; I do not know what decisions will be made. I know that I love my wife and I will support her in whatever she may choose. And I don't know what else to say... I'm sorry for dragging down the mood, but I also felt that y'all should know what's going on and where my head is right now. I'm trying to stay as positive as I possibly can, I'm trying to enjoy the time I have left with her. I'm trying to stay strong... honestly, all I really want to do is crawl into a cave and wish for it to all just go away. I know that isn't going to happen, but one can still wish, right?

I cannot imagine what you are going through (I went through a similar thing with my Daddy and my husband's Dad...but not the love of my life....), but I wish your wife and you the best of wishes and I will keep her in my prayers. I am sorry that this has happened to her, and I wish there was more that I could say to make you feel better. I honestly cannot imagine what is going through her mind. My heart aches for you both, and you guys are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.

 

[Kodak]

Teensy side note, Tejas - might depend on your flavoring. TFA and CAP are "weaker" so you can use more. From what I understand, FW and Kodak's new Flavorah are more concentrated? Don't necessarily need as much. I'm mostly a TFA mixer. I have a few CAP and a couple other miscellaneous ones. I always have to adapt when other manufacturers are used. But, DIY is all about YOU - I try to treat recipes as a starting point. Doesn't always mean how I'll always mix something, but it's a great place for me to start.

Your tastebuds are YOURS.... You have to appease them

FlavourArt and Flavorah are the two most concentrated out of all the brands I've used. Flavor West and INA comes in a little weaker than them. TFA, CAP, and Loranne's all seem to clock in about the same on flavor strength to me, which requires more per recipe. But like you say, it's all about individual taste! I use others recipes as jumping off points for myself as well--what seems strong flavor wise to them may be weak to me

 

[Kodak]

overall, yes - i tend to use much lower percentages of FA flavors, in general...

got to test the Cotton Tail variations recently (clones of Suicide Bunny's Original Bunny, I believe) - v2 looks like a clear winner (much fuller flavor profile, nice bit of sweet with some depth)... the Steam Factory Muffcake clone is off the chains (essentially a lemon poundcake - going to be mixing a clone or two of Glas's Poundcake when I get home also)... need to test da blueberries next, now that they have had some decent steepin' time... early reports on the Bourbon Peach Cheesecake are favorable, also - smells great, just need to take it for a spin...

first world problems for the win

So you're saying there will be new recipes in my inbox soon?

 

[dcfluegel]

So you're saying there will be new recipes in my inbox soon?

mebbe...

gotta test the blueberry variants, the bourbon peach variants (new style bourbon peach cheesecake, not someone elses...), the cocoberry cream variants... then, gotta mix beignet variants when i get home along with a few other clone recipes that look very promising

 

[LynnNC]

mebbe...

gotta test the blueberry variants, the bourbon peach variants (new style bourbon peach cheesecake, not someone elses...), the cocoberry cream variants... then, gotta mix beignet variants when i get home along with a few other clone recipes that look very promising

I'm excited!!!

 

[whodat2112]

mebbe...

gotta test the blueberry variants, the bourbon peach variants (new style bourbon peach cheesecake, not someone elses...), the cocoberry cream variants... then, gotta mix beignet variants when i get home along with a few other clone recipes that look very promising

Did someone mention beignets???

 

[dcfluegel]

Did someone mention beignets???

yes sir in da works

 

[jacketpocket]

Hi ya'll. Working on a new flavor called Petrichor , known as the smell after a rain storm. After some digging, I have discovered some of the specific molds and bacteria that are responsible for this unique smell. Obviously, I have no idea what I'm doing , and it doesn't sound like a great idea to be vaping mold into my lungs. Obviously the goal is to remove the flavor. Also a part of the scent I'm after is ozone which is actually poisonous to humans. However , I'm committed to making my new earthy eJuice.

I am usually heating various plants and herbs in 100% VG, filter and serve. I'm pretty sure my juice has no shelf life , so I usually only let it steep a few days.

I have been searching for a while 4 various tree and wood scents, but they are hard to find. I'm big on organic flavor removal. I don't like when they use the alcohol process.

I've experimented with oil scents, with not much success. Otherwise I'd probably just go buy this and mix it in: http://www.longwinterfarm.com/products/petrichor-perfume-oil

Any one recommend any other techniques of flavor removal that do not involve crazy butane and napalm?

 

[LouisLeBeau]

Hi ya'll. Working on a new flavor called Petrichor , known as the smell after a rain storm. After some digging, I have discovered some of the specific molds and bacteria that are responsible for this unique smell. Obviously, I have no idea what I'm doing , and it doesn't sound like a great idea to be vaping mold into my lungs. Obviously the goal is to remove the flavor. Also a part of the scent I'm after is ozone which is actually poisonous to humans. However , I'm committed to making my new earthy eJuice.

I am usually heating various plants and herbs in 100% VG, filter and serve. I'm pretty sure my juice has no shelf life , so I usually only let it steep a few days.

I have been searching for a while 4 various tree and wood scents, but they are hard to find. I'm big on organic flavor removal. I don't like when they use the alcohol process.

I've experimented with oil scents, with not much success. Otherwise I'd probably just go buy this and mix it in: http://www.longwinterfarm.com/products/petrichor-perfume-oil

Any one recommend any other techniques of flavor removal that do not involve crazy butane and napalm?

I'm so emotionally conflicted by this post. Help me choose!

I'd say it is a REALLY bad idea to vape oils, but trees, grasses and molds are pretty high up there too :shrug:

 

[markfm]

Hi ya'll. Working on a new flavor called Petrichor , known as the smell after a rain storm. After some digging, I have discovered some of the specific molds and bacteria that are responsible for this unique smell. Obviously, I have no idea what I'm doing , and it doesn't sound like a great idea to be vaping mold into my lungs. Obviously the goal is to remove the flavor. Also a part of the scent I'm after is ozone which is actually poisonous to humans. However , I'm committed to making my new earthy eJuice.

I am usually heating various plants and herbs in 100% VG, filter and serve. I'm pretty sure my juice has no shelf life , so I usually only let it steep a few days.

I have been searching for a while 4 various tree and wood scents, but they are hard to find. I'm big on organic flavor removal. I don't like when they use the alcohol process.

I've experimented with oil scents, with not much success. Otherwise I'd probably just go buy this and mix it in: http://www.longwinterfarm.com/products/petrichor-perfume-oil

Any one recommend any other techniques of flavor removal that do not involve crazy butane and napalm?

None of what is listed in the linked ingredients sounds good, safe for vaping. Please spend time reading in the diy e- liquid forum area.