I hesitated to reply, but decided to ..
As one who has been haunted by the Ghosts of Times Past, I generally don't much talk or write about it .. with the exception of various times here on ECF when I have felt almost compelled, and when I did, it provided some degree of catharsis .. one of my sincere hopes is that, over the years, we, together, have built a repository of memory .. covering the Gauntlet of Human Emotion .. and when I say, "We" I say it for all of us ..
In times Past, I have written about the bits and bytes that will forever linger in some digital form, likely in perpetuity .. like the traveling Minstrels and Storytellers from days long ago, perhaps, sometime in the distant future, someone will stumble upon the narrative ..
Your Post, Mike, was and is quite beautiful and yet, heartbreaking all at the same time ..
When my Regular Sleep Cycle is disrupted, or I just can't climb out of my own head with the Old Brain re-hashing and wondering "What If .. ??" .. my go to remains 1/2-1mg clonazepam, with or without a Natural Herbal kicker ..
And, thanks for the pics/vid of Miles .. made my day ..

.. there is still hope ..
Sorry for the ramble ..