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Lung fluid came back inconclusive, but a biopsy of one of the masses of his lungs was positive for cancer. That was Friday. Yesterday his lungs filled with fluid and collapsed. They has to intabate him and sedate him. At the same time MIL took a turn for the worse. She had not slept all night and was hallucinating very bad. At the same moment the FIL had his episode and was calling out for her (at the hospital) she was here calling out to him that she would be right there (home with us). We ended up taking her to the ER last night. They kept her for tests and observation. We suspect she has been having mini strokes. FIL has a DNR on his chart. And they called this morning to let us know that they already had to several times. They wanted to know if they should continue if he has another episode. DH knows that is not what he wants. So he told them not to. It will be any minute now. I had a dream that FIM and MIL came together. They looked young. They were both very happy. And said to enjoy life and that they were moving on. It was very uplifting. But when I woke up I started to cry. Because this has happened to me every time someone close to me dies the night before their death. The other 2 times were 1. my best friends fiancee (also lung cancer), he told me to give her a message because he could not connect to her, to be happy and find another love. The thing was he was supposed to be 100% curable. Then I woke up to her call that he had passed. 2nd was DH's grandma. She came to me in a dream and laughed and smiled I made her a sandwich and we all danced in the living room. Then she hugged me and said she had to go. She passed away that afternoon. In a way I find it comforting. Because I know that they are out of pain. And they are happy. But I still feel the loss deeply. I have been crying all morning. I believe that whatever higher power blessed us with this baby to balance our suffering.
Thank you everyone for the prayers. They were all heard and very much appreciated.