Need someone to talk to please.

[whatagem]

Hello there. I was wondering if there is a very-Christian member who I may speak with?
I am coming here because I know everything about God is up, positive. I could really use some positive right now.

My moods are roller coaster. I go from angry rage (throwing things, pounding the wall) to suicidal, to laughing until tears roll day by day. I've seen doctors, I've tried drugs. Given up on a lot of that nonsense.

My cousin sent me a dozen Joyce Meyer CDs to listen to at work & it's helps a little. I do pray daily, I even started out loud confessions a couple months ago--something I've never heard of before. I attend church....kinda when I feel like going. There's a skillion churches in this city & haven't found one yet that I love. I do tithe. Even if I do not attend church for 6 weeks, I write a check for 6 weeks worth of tithe to whatever church I go to that week. Waiting for my storehouses to overflow, heh.

Anyways, I cannot speak with my husband about this ("Oooooh," he mocks, "I hate my life, everything sucks....") He doesn't understand, he's never had one suicidal thought in his mind ever. Although a very close, very good friend of his committed suicide years ago.

I've been like this since I was a child, saw a shrink when I was 14 or 15 & drugged up. Wondering if there may be another lady here who might understand? No offense, guys, but us gals go through some stuff you do not Hoping another female might relate to some of my issues.

I'm 29, married, no kids and not looking to broadcast my entire story here so private messaging may be better for me.

 

[LisaLisa]

Whatagem, I'd love to chat with you. There are many wonderful loving sisters in Christ here. I'm sure more of them will be along shortly. Anqelique, Blonde, Truckinlady, Saintscruiser.........too many to even list. Feel free to PM me, or any of the other awesome ladies here, we are all your sisters.

I have serious mood swings too. Not as severe as you have mentioned, but mine are hormone related. Have you ever had a full hormone study done? There are alot of natural things you can take if you don't want to go the traditional route, soy increases your estrogen, kava kava and valarian root for calmness, many things like that. I take L-Tyrosine on a daily basis and that keeps me upbeat and positive most of the time.

I'm not fit to be around for 1 week out of the month, due to hormones, I am just an emotional mess, up and down up and down up and down for no reason at all.

I think you're doing great praying about this, God does know what you're going through, and you're never alone

 

[angelique510]

Hi Whatagem,

Sometimes my husband thinks he is married to Linda Blair, Sybil, or Mrs. Hyde LOL I have tried all the things I think you have been through. Gynocologists, endocrinologists, Shrinks, meds, herbals, new age BS - you name it. Obviously, I haven't found any solutions, but I can tell you you are not alone. Just click the little Yahoo icon under my avatar. I'm usually around. We can scream at each other and share chocolate.

Hugs,
~A

 

[LisaLisa]

We can scream at each other and share chocolate.

LOL! You're so awesome Angelique!

 

[providencewouldhaveit]

I had huge emotional swings during menopause but not to bad when I was younger. I think exercise helped during my time exercise has a natural harmone balancing effects and also some herbs like kelp for iodine, maca, damiana, tribulus terrestris all have harmonal balancing effects. I rairly go to doctors. Never mamo. Haven't been to gyn in over 10 years. I really study herbology because I believe it to be God given medicine at the time sin entered the world. Gen 3:17 And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life;
Gen 3:18 Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of the field;
My mom had big harmonal problems and my dad claimed that the harmonal patch helped her. Your not insain just need some balance. I'll be praying for you.

 

[whatagem]

What is L-Tyrosine?
I am afraid of a lot of over the counter stuff because I take birth control pill, lowest hormone level there is. Not the pill that makes me nuts, I only began the pill at age 20. When I was 14 or 15 I swallowed about 20 pills and this was really the pinnacle of it all. I landed in the hospital, my parents were now aware of my issues to some degree, my bedroom door was lifted from its hinges. I had self-inflicted bruises and deep cuts on my legs and arms. (even today I am still self-abusive, though the degree is much less) My 12 yr old niece went trhough the same thing, I would let her call me anytime, day or night & just listen & let her cry. I felt I was not fit to help her because I was in the same place. Though I was the only one who really understood what she felt.

I do excercise sorta...I am blue collar. On my feet all day, running around. I would like nothing more than to lose 10 pounds & tell myself EVERY day, today's the day I'll begin & jog or whatever. Occasionally I do some sit ups, then a month goes by. I go through the same thing with reading the Bible. EVERY day I say, I will start today.

I have major esteem issues. I have not owned a bathing suit since I was 10. I was formerly pretty overweight, now slightly chubby but in my own eyes 600 pounds. People tell me I am skinny, I have not worn shorts since I was a kid and it got to 112 degrees this summer. I am insecure, I have food issues, no sex drive at all, i am angry, bitter, jealous and I often feel the only reason I am still alive is because I know how badly it would hurt my mom & husband....but is that fair to me? Now, the next day I might ok, on cloud nine, thanking God for everything little thing from cold showers to the convienence of wal-mart. I might eat very healthy for a couple weeks, then I binge heavily for 3 or 4 days on pizza, candy, anything that's really sugary or fatty.

The flip side of all this is when my cousin first sent me the joyce meyer CDs. I had taken all that positive thinking stuff to heart. I wasn't expecting a bad day, or for people to hurt me. I was actually content in my crappy job, content to do the chores & errands that I normally hate. I went from a total wreck to a happy, content person, to a total and complete mess. All in six months. And this is normal for me. I do not have a single friend except my mom & husband, but I cannot talk to them and my husband makes me crazy at times. I get along with my co-workers, but they are not friends and sometimes I go the entire day speaking no more than 10 words during the 8 hours at work.

Well, I've gone and spewed all my word-vomit all over the place. I do not know how to change. I just want to be happy. Or even, not miserable. I'd like to be not miserable.

I might be interested in herbs, vitamins but most of the ones I have looked into are expensive. Could you guys explain these herbs & vits a bit more?

 

[providencewouldhaveit]

I get a lot of my vitamins and herbs online they are cheaper at Vitamins, Minerals and Supplements - Buy Discount Vitamins Online - Vitacost The down side to trying to straightening out your harmones is that it could mess with your birth control. I also believe that birth control could be making things worse for you. I couldn't take birth control because even the lightest dose messed me all up. Estrogen dominance is more likely that a dificiency in estrogen. Kelp is the first thing I would try it will not interfere with anything and will help general health. Damiana is really more of a sex drive kinda thing but also helps with mood. The good thing about Vitacost is that you can read reviews by other people and see what kind of things helped them.
Here is some info on Damiana: Damiana
Here is some info on maca:Maca root : Maca Science : Hormone Replace Therapy Properties of Maca Root : Maca Magic and the Herbs America Company
Here is some info on kelp: Kelp Benefits - Discover The Benefits of Kelp
Here is some info on tribulus terrestris: Tribulus Terrestris Extract Benefits Organic

 

[Saintscruiser]

Gem, I sent you a private message. I pray you're having a peaceful night.

 

[LisaLisa]

Alot of people have this problems too, you're not alone. From what I read, cutting and other things that you have mentioned go along with bipolar disorder. I would really suggest you get into the hands of a professional therapist and doctor ASAP. This could be caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain. If that is the case, all of the jogging and herbs in the world isn't going to help you, you're going to need medication to balance it out and therapy to get to the bottom of these issues.

Your life is precious, you are beautiful, you are loved, and you are important. Important enough to take action immediately and get serious professional help to straighten this out. We can all pray for you, and we will. But, we can't do what really needs to be done, and that is serious therapy and medication administered by professionals. I beg you to take action on this, and get the help that you need to continue living your life, and get on track to being a healthy happy person. Please do this for yourself, for God, and for your family. You can recover, but it's going to take some very hard work on your part, but it's worth it. Life really can be beautiful, you can love yourself again, and you can overcome these obstacles with the help of trained professionals and the love of Jesus

Lord, we come to you this morning with a request for our dear sister Whatagem. She is dealing with some very painful and difficult issues that are dangerous to her spiritually, emotionally and physically. We know how precious she is to you, and how much you love her. We ask that you will please guide her in the right direction to get the help that she needs to overcome these obstacles in her life. Please shower her with love, compassion and understanding, and give her the strength and motivation that she needs to get this help so that she can enjoy the rest of her life as you have intended. Please move her to spirit to get this help, help her to get through it, stand by her during the hard times, keep on holding her hand and supporting her when she feels that she can't continue. We know that through you all things are possible, including recovery from illness. We ask that you will send her peace, love, strength, and healing.

We ask this in Jesus's name.
AMEN.

 

[trukinlady]

In Jesus' Name..AMEN!

 

[LisaLisa]

I would also look into having all of your hormone levels checked. That could also be what's wreaking havoc on your emotional state.

 

[providencewouldhaveit]

I've been praying for you. I think Lisalisa is probably right about bipolar and that you do need to take action to overcome this in your life. Finding a doctor that really cares about you is very important. I still do think that kelp cannot hurt. Here is some info on kelp and bipolar Kelp - Nature's Gift from the Sea -Bipolar Disorder Aid - Dr. Cares™

Mighty Lord, and Heavenly Father to you belongs all glory and honor. We thank you that you have allowed a way to petition your thone through blood of your dear Son. We pray that our sister find a doctor who fears you and knows how to love because he/she is loved by you. I pray that you will be a comforter and ever present help to whatagem and that she will be at peace in your love. Help this to be a day of rejoiceing for whatagem and may you be glorified in our midst we pray in Jesus, Precious and Holy name, Amen

 

[LisaLisa]

I've been praying for you. I think Lisalisa is probably right about bipolar and that you do need to take action to overcome this in your life. Finding a doctor that really cares about you is very important. I still do think that kelp cannot hurt. Here is some info on kelp and bipolar Kelp - Nature's Gift from the Sea -Bipolar Disorder Aid - Dr. Cares™

Mighty Lord, and Heavenly Father to you belongs all glory and honor. We thank you that you have allowed a way to petition your thone through blood of your dear Son. We pray that our sister find a doctor who fears you and knows how to love because he/she is loved by you. I pray that you will be a comforter and ever present help to whatagem and that she will be at peace in your love. Help this to be a day of rejoiceing for whatagem and may you be glorified in our midst we pray in Jesus, Precious and Holy name, Amen

AMEN!!!!!

I just quickly read that article on Kelp, and that's really interesting stuff. I"m going to give that a try myself, my thyroid is basically non-existent. Do you take the kelp? If so, do you eat it raw or in a capsule?

 

[Stephaniems]

I was gonna suggest a thyroid panel for her. Or atleast take an online quiz to see if she has alot of symptoms for thyroid problems.

Thyroid being off messes up everything.

Hope you find some peace in your life whatagem. God Bless ya.

 

[LisaLisa]

What is L-Tyrosine?

L-Tyrosine is an amino acid that is supposed to help thyroid function and the brain. Here is more info on it. I take it everyday to help my mood and help my own thyroid function.

Tyrosine Benefits

 

[LisaLisa]

I was gonna suggest a thyroid panel for her. Or atleast take an online quiz to see if she has alot of symptoms for thyroid problems.

Thyroid being off messes up everything.

Hope you find some peace in your life whatagem. God Bless ya.

Yes, that's true. Thyroid will mess up everything. OP, have you had your thyroid tested? Here is important info for you to read before you get tested. Most doctors order one test, but not the other, which can give you a false normal result.

Thyroid Resources: What Your Doctor Doesn't Know May Make Your Life Miserable

 

[Stephaniems]

Also most all the doctors are on the old standard and not the new of .3 to 3.0 for a TSH level. They should look at T3 T4 and TSH

 

[blondeambition3]

Hello there. I was wondering if there is a very-Christian member who I may speak with?
I am coming here because I know everything about God is up, positive. I could really use some positive right now.

My moods are roller coaster. I go from angry rage (throwing things, pounding the wall) to suicidal, to laughing until tears roll day by day. I've seen doctors, I've tried drugs. Given up on a lot of that nonsense.

My cousin sent me a dozen Joyce Meyer CDs to listen to at work & it's helps a little. I do pray daily, I even started out loud confessions a couple months ago--something I've never heard of before. I attend church....kinda when I feel like going. There's a skillion churches in this city & haven't found one yet that I love. I do tithe. Even if I do not attend church for 6 weeks, I write a check for 6 weeks worth of tithe to whatever church I go to that week. Waiting for my storehouses to overflow, heh.

Anyways, I cannot speak with my husband about this ("Oooooh," he mocks, "I hate my life, everything sucks....") He doesn't understand, he's never had one suicidal thought in his mind ever. Although a very close, very good friend of his committed suicide years ago.

I've been like this since I was a child, saw a shrink when I was 14 or 15 & drugged up. Wondering if there may be another lady here who might understand? No offense, guys, but us gals go through some stuff you do not Hoping another female might relate to some of my issues.

I'm 29, married, no kids and not looking to broadcast my entire story here so private messaging may be better for me.

It's good whatagem that you are sharing this inner emotional turmoil with us.. and we are all here to help in any & all ways possible. I too am a hormonal disaster case so you are truly in good company & stead... definitely not alone.. (lol) I'm not trying to minimize or diminish your apparent emotional distress or pain however. Have you tried going to your Church & having the elders pray over you? This is strongly advised in the Bible; Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: - James 5:14 Since I am not 'there' with you and can not 'discern' your background or History properly then I'm just going to 'assume' that you may have a 'spiritual' entity attached to you that may be torturing you. (Chemicals & drugs can do this also!) ... like I said, no judgments here.. it happens to lots of good people, but also hormonal imbalances & drugs can make you feel like you're crazy too, lead you to suicide... everything you've described. I would go to the 'elders' of my Church and have them pray for me... if you don't go to 'that kind' of Church... find one.... and continue to listen to the tapes, read the Bible (His word) faithfully continue your intimacy (deep prayer) walk with Christ and 'share' the good news of His Gospel to everyone you meet. "Greater is HE that is in YOU than he that is in the World!" .. Nothing (No weapons of the enemy or others) formed against YOU can prosper. Seek the LORD and you shall find Him. I'll be praying for you... just don't give up... cling to Christ and allow us to pray for you!

 

[LisaLisa]

It's good whatagem that you are sharing this inner emotional turmoil with us.. and we are all here to help in any & all ways possible. I too am a hormonal disaster case so you are truly in good company & stead... definitely not alone.. (lol) I'm not trying to minimize or diminish your apparent emotional distress or pain however. Have you tried going to your Church & having the elders pray over you? This is strongly advised in the Bible; Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord: - James 5:14 Since I am not 'there' with you and can not 'discern' your background or History properly then I'm just going to 'assume' that you may have a 'spiritual' entity attached to you that may be torturing you. (Chemicals & drugs can do this also!) ... like I said, no judgments here.. it happens to lots of good people, but also hormonal imbalances & drugs can make you feel like you're crazy too, lead you to suicide... everything you've described. I would go to the 'elders' of my Church and have them pray for me... if you don't go to 'that kind' of Church... find one.... and continue to listen to the tapes, read the Bible (His word) faithfully continue your intimacy (deep prayer) walk with Christ and 'share' the good news of His Gospel to everyone you meet. "Greater is HE that is in YOU than he that is in the World!" .. Nothing (No weapons of the enemy or others) formed against YOU can prosper. Seek the LORD and you shall find Him. I'll be praying for you... just don't give up... cling to Christ and allow us to pray for you!

This is true and very good advise. The demons LOVE to torment us, and they take alot of pleasure in your suffering. You need to draw as close to Jesus as you possibly can, and rid your home and your mind of everything and anything that might be allowing them to get to you. This can include entertainment that isn't godly, symbols or things around your home that might be inviting them in, just really do a complete evaluation of your life and your house to make sure that there isn't anything there that is inviting them in.

Then pray constantly. Fill your mind with things of God, and get close to strong Christians that can pray over you as blonde suggested. Don't let Satan win this one, you're too precious for that. You belong to Jesus!

 

[Saintscruiser]

Gem, I sent you a PM stating the above mentioned possibilities. Now that it is out in the open, if you really want to get better, I truly encourage you to check out these possibilities. Take it from someone who has pondered suicide from time to time. It's your circumstance, not you, Gem. You don't want to die......you just want all of these problems to just STOP! Not a one of us blames you for that, and we've probably been there at one time or another. With God, ALL things are possible. Don't ever forget that He loves you, and wants to help you.