Thanks for all the advice. I have suffered depression for as long as I can remember, certainly aged 11. I understand there is always a bit of depression and "loss" after quitting smoking and it is temporary. But I was depressed when I smoked, but it went to a whole other level when I quit nicotine. I have tried to quit many times. 6 times to Allen Carrs's easy way clinic, £5000 on hypnotists, 5 courses of zyban, 2 champix. Never mind NRT, that was just a way to top up my levels between cigarettes. But I quit, on my own, no drugs, no nicotine and it was easy, amazingly.
But if someone starts smoking at 11 whilst there brain is still developing and quits at 41 I am not surprised the depression worsened. Lets get it straight, its not getting depressed because I feel deprived of smoking. I have no desire to smoke whatsoever. But I have now just started with an ecig, after my fist post, as the depression was too much. It feels as if my brain is firing/online again now. Yes, still depressed, still moody, but nowhere as bad. However after stopping for 3 months and now ecigs, I feel I can just stick to ecigs. Before i used ecigs when I needed nicotine but my lungs couldnt cope with any more smoke, ie between cigarettes. Rather ecigs and happier.