It seems that nightmares occur more often than good dreams for me.
Last night, I deliberately took 2 big puffs before going to bed. I couldn't fall asleep for a long time (wasn't tired to begin with) but I eventually fell asleep. I had the most horrid dream. My boyfriend woke me up in the middle of the night because he heard me whimpering "No, please don't" and tossing and turning over and over again.
You cannot imagine the relief I felt knowing I was just having a nightmare. I dreamt some man had kidnapped me while I was walking to class, and had repeatedly raped and cut me while I was chained up in a bedroom. He also knocked out my teeth, so I had this awful feeling that my appearance was ruined. When I finally managed to escape, he began kidnapping people I knew and torturing them and sending me video clips of him prying out their teeth, including little kids. I finally went back to his place so he wouldn't do that anymore, and the house was rigged with a bomb. I didn't die, but somehow there was a weird scene where I went back to my parent's house and I was crying and told my mom everything that had happened and I thought my life was going to be normal again. Then, I went to a store to buy some stuff before driving back to my own home, when I encountered the guy at the store. He just laughed at me and told me and asked me if I wanted him to walk me back to my car. I started freaking out and yelling "This guy is trying to kill me! Please help!" in the middle of the store. Everyone ignored me. What a horrible horrible feeling.
I still want to try to see if I could get a good dream, but if I keep having nightmares like these, I think I will stop vaping a good while before bed. I'm getting tired of waking up every morning with the intense feeling of impeding doom.
