Man that extra shipping cost (I was feeling mordant, I paid more) is totally worth it. Mine is arriving in like 3 days. More one shots here I come! I'm exhausted. I am truly, truly fried an I don't say that very often.
Yay for one shots.
I had ONE BVC coil make it thorough and ENTIRE 60 ml of my liquid. Granted, I vape and flavor low, but I am proud of myself. I have a very very berry thing to put in there next. I'm trying not to rush. LOL.
Also, (shamelessly mostly cross posted from the shinyitis thread, witness ABOVE the exhaustion.... I am..... This has been a rough time and I wouldn't mind a little dinner murder mystery in Italy where my doc is the star. To be fair, I could have said "VALIUM WHUT?" but I didn't.
OH THANK GOD. I had my meeting today and like, sanity prevailed. It was just me and Head Doctor, who turned out so much less (censored)ish, it make me wonder how he poops now. He seriously was super nice. We were sitting there like chatting about "whatever" when I was like, "Man, I really wish I had a do over button, like starting over would be so nice, everything has gotten crazy complicated."
Anyway, that was his deal. Maybe he had been beaming stuff into my brain to say that because that was his whole deal "Either we start over or I have to move you separate places." Anyway, he went on at length about how evil dude was annoying definitely in the wrong "but not scary." He also said (I guess he talked to evil doc first) that him coming into my office without permission ALL AGOG with his solution without reading my email was like "not okay" and how he told evil dude that. He was like, "I don't think she was ready for you to do that." Etc. He also went on extensively at length how I hadn't done anything wrong and all he heard was good feedback." That is probably true, because most people DO like me and I am WAY better behaved than on HERE. To be fair, I do not know my number of ignorers, nor should I ever wish to know. Thanks.
But anyway he was like also, "Everyone is sick of hearing about you too." I was like, "Good because *I* am sick of hearing about us too and I think my husband is near death."
He said Dr. Evil was "going through some stuff, (I think he means the whole separation thing) but he's known him five years and he doesn't have the forethought to try and frame people and hasn't before. He said Dr. Evil Admitted fault to yelling at me and that would be in the contract too, a contract we both get to review, amend, sign whatever." I do kinda think my email might have hastened things along. He also said evil doc does have a crazy caseload and maybe sometime would need me to see kids elsewhere. I kind of laughed and told head doc that I was the ONE person in that facility who could literally care less and would see families in trees as far as I was concerned. In fact, I bet that would be freaking GREAT.
So like, we assented to try a contract I guess we will see. I'm not breaking it first that is for sure. Not after marriage number one. That whole contract breaking thing was NIGHTMARISH.
He was kind of actually nice and kind of funny. I told him that like actually one of the NICE things about this was like, I was no longer horrifically intimidated by him (he comes off like the heath care version of PC principal I swear. You are like. "oh man, that is a TOOL but also kind of terrifying." I did not tell him that part. because again unlike here, I know how to self censor.
I am NOW fried and exhausted but also relieved. I have also not pooped since my very first clonidine. GREAT. I got some laxatives in the car, I am PREPARED to go take some.
Clonidine sucks in that respect. Well, not when you are like, detoxing off opiates. That is a different story entirely.
But a bathroom visit for sure would be a crowning achievement on my day. LOL.
Sorry. TMI. But, BRB also.
NO JOY. The box calls it "a gentle overnight laxative." I certainly HOPE not because I don't awaken for gentle urges to do ANYTHING. Maybe they mean I will wake gently tomorrow and drift into the bathroom and it will be like, heavenly.
I don't know though. I'm not even HUNGRY at the moment. No more clonidine for now I am going to have to suffer I guess.
Doc Murder Mystery indeed.
Anna
