And I was banned from the viewing and the funeral by his wife. It's pretty much an evil stepmother thing and everyone who knows me is upset. I was left out of the obituary, too, and I know those weren't Daddy's wishes because I saw him late June and hugged and cried on him at my aunt's funeral and asked if I could come visit, to which he replied yes. He got sick after that, or at least diagnosed with extensive cancer that was inoperable and resistant to chemotherapy. I'd stayed away for 11 years because of his wife and her hatred for me, but I made the decision to approach him at my aunt's funeral, and now I'm glad I did because that's the last time he held me.
I want to scream and break things and cry my eyes out, but I can't. My mom and boyfriend are afraid I'm going to break and I don't want to stress Mom out more than she is. My older brother is heartbroken and needs me to know Daddy loved me and it wasn't his doing. He said I was lucky to not have seen him dying because he just wasn't Dad for the last couple of months.
So, how do I get over this? I was a Daddy's Girl before he remarried and he would never stand up to her (she is SCARY, looking and sounding) after. I'm torn up, and I have to tell everyone I'm okay or they get worried or tell Mom and she worries. My boyfriend just says "I love you" every single minute I cry and looks at me with pain and pity. I've been writing, and I'm going to print out my own obituary with my name in it and have a memorial service here to seek closure, but if that doesn't work? I've never done anything to Daddy or his wife except exist. I tried multiple times to have a relationship with her for Dad's sake, but she truly hates me for some reason. I'm still raw and don't know what to do. He was only 55.
I want to scream and break things and cry my eyes out, but I can't. My mom and boyfriend are afraid I'm going to break and I don't want to stress Mom out more than she is. My older brother is heartbroken and needs me to know Daddy loved me and it wasn't his doing. He said I was lucky to not have seen him dying because he just wasn't Dad for the last couple of months.
So, how do I get over this? I was a Daddy's Girl before he remarried and he would never stand up to her (she is SCARY, looking and sounding) after. I'm torn up, and I have to tell everyone I'm okay or they get worried or tell Mom and she worries. My boyfriend just says "I love you" every single minute I cry and looks at me with pain and pity. I've been writing, and I'm going to print out my own obituary with my name in it and have a memorial service here to seek closure, but if that doesn't work? I've never done anything to Daddy or his wife except exist. I tried multiple times to have a relationship with her for Dad's sake, but she truly hates me for some reason. I'm still raw and don't know what to do. He was only 55.