but in this case it's you...
In this case I feel I have to be careful and have thought on it all night long. This is a long answer not short. Remember all the videos even AGT? and one of my favorites Mel asks the martial artist if he is hot, and he kinda winks. Yes I am. 6' 1 1/2" and 220 pounds, it barely fluctuates two pounds and if it goes to five I think time to get trim.
I never worked out like they show on tv. those big massive muscles as I know that when you get older it turns to flab, man ti..ies. so have always gone for lean muscle. just like my ecf name lower case, I do not believe myself to be superior to another, in fact.
As I walk around and do things everyone does like grocery shopping, I know I am blessed when I see the number of people that have a disability. I wish they had a better life.
My mom before she passed from cancer, she fought hard the first
three times, and after seeing I and my two sisters grown and out of the house of misery, let the fourth take her said to me once as a teen. "You do not know your own strength." How right she was and is.
See the wedding group the groom and his friends towered over me by a good foot and a half, and built well, how do you mess this up. Not navy seals army rangers. So fit. And yet they feared me....
And mostly nothing more than following the law of the land. So my ex desired to be in movies and she did model for a time, I helped her try to get better and in. We did interviews together for ads to tv and magazines that is how good looking we all were including children. But it did not end there.
Where my ….. uh sperm donner was physically and mentally abusive, to all including mom. I the brunt of his police brutality and there you go why I do not trust cops and their interrogation. He should be in prison we talked about that.
So I have to learn to stand for myself, and all my life. Many have said, you need to talk more, and when I do they then say, you need to stop. As one thing I have found, if you do not lie, you do not have to remember the lie and make more to cover it. If it was an honest mistake just say so, if it was worse confess.
I really do hate text, it has no influx of voice or discernment there. Caps equals shouting they say. what of laughter or somber, or tired, no indication in text.
But I guess in a way, I kinda hate it. Always in the spot light as far as work goes, sorry about spelling that out and breaking my own rules. But almost every job, here, here is my name is not tiggs I have a real one and a good one. Nor am I a drivers license number or a social security number.
I have had more than one woman
through my life teen to tween and on tell me. You could were a burlap sack and still look handsome and it is true. Katz is wrong I look good in orange, and green, blue, purple, black, white all. all clothes and styles I was blessed that way and to give you an idea my mom took an IQ test in college she hit 168 I a little lower 146, and that is no more than a gag to learn.
She was very smart and I mean smart just with the wrong man, but it worked out for me and my sisters. She warned me, and I am living it.
JPF know of my dreams better than any other, I could not tell my wife, even in bits she could not take it. Remember saving private ryan the movie? Her family could not watch it, even though grandpa was in the navy, too realistic. But to me, I was there the whole time. Even if there were errors it was just that realistic that I saw things that hmmm hmmm hmmm, no. To friend in combat reinforcing it.
We spoke on the phone once of my martial arts training. Five in total and you never forget. I want to say something but want to save it for TIOA, hmmm okay pressure points and that is it. I knew I was in the wrong dojo when I was asked how much to take a life,,, and walked away.
My "mentor" was the only one who could beat me, though it was up and down, I better than he we pushed each other, but no other. No matter the student or master of another, they never bested me. Though I never have taken a life, and not in hatred I have come close.
One at church in fact when I was around 17. A kid starts screaming at all, high. and just out of his mind comes my way and takes of his shirt to show he is ready to go. I let him
throw his punch, use his momentum to miss me and pull his arm like slow motion past me and kneel. I bring him down and since his shirt is off see all the vertebrae. One elbow blow and for three days he could not use his arm.
I realized then that it is not like the games you play on Nintendo, this is real stuff. And coming from a house of hate due to my dad, to having the mentor train me to beat him. I fear no man, none.
Does not mean I am stupid about it. Knives are better than hands a majority of the time, guns are better in distance than both a majority of the time. But by g.d if you shoot at me, or come at me you better be on point, cause I go straight to training. Gentle as a fuzzy toy bear in person, you can talk to me all day, we can have a great time, watch a good movie, listen to some good music, eat some great food.
But if you come male or female at me, no. I got and am tired of abuse.
oh yeah the dreams. JPF know as some others I have seen the devil, and his army, and his "kingdom" when I was a teen my dreams and they always are. I do not like to dream never have. Nightmares, protecting my family, especially my younger sister.
It really was like a tv series or movie, in that as a dream ended. It would give me a preview of the next night, here is the bad you will see. and sure enough and at the start of the next night and starting to dream a reminder of the nightmare the night before. So saying that I try to find things that make me happy. Try to find beauty in the world. Hello dragonfly, hello frog, hello cute puppy.
And all that said not even close to who I am, but a start okay?
Right he does not want to talk..... lol
Edit: And that sword he uses in todays standard is six grand. I posted the video an hour long on how it is made. Two alloys, or metals, strong and sharp, not a joke, and why I do enjoy Japanese history, and samurais a code of conduct, if even slightly wrong.