I'm sorry to hear about your mom as well. As a pack a day smoker for 27 years, I feel for you. Even the fears of death could not dissuade me from smoking. However, for the past two days, my e cig has. I have not had an analog since I started vaping. We begin the journey of trading one vice for another, but hopefully this one will be better for us than the last. I don't want to smoke, but I love vaping! I don't miss my analogs at all!!!!! My husband is making fun of me, but I can live with that! I am a happy camper these days!!! Best of luck on your journey!!!!