Plain and simple.. If you REALLY want a mech, just get a mech... However, I would recommend getting yourself a quality "clone" as your first mech.. I say this because, plain and simple, you can get a clone for 1/4 of the price of an authentic mech and it will give you a good idea as to if you want to continue using a mech without dropping $200 on a device that you may not like using... You can get a good quality Nemesis clone from hcigar on Ebay for around $50, and it will perform on par with the authentic Nemesis... If it turns out that you like using a mech, than you can spend your money on a good quality authentic mech (after having cut your teeth on a clone).