Wow, it's so nice to know I'm not alone!
Oddly enough I think my saving grace was vitamin b12. Several docs thought I was crazy or wanting disability, but I finally found one that ran every test in the book. Only thing wrong was a severe b12 deficiency. Started taking it and my attacks stopped! Haven't had a huge one since. So I always tell others to take their b12! It aids in the production of nerve linings in the brain so I think my brain was misfiring.
You're definitely not alone. I've always suffered from depression and anxiety both. Been on millions of meds forever. The most recent combo that seems to work best has been Paxil and Xanax. Had my first panic attack about 3 weeks or so ago...I *think* vaping had something to do with it, but I'm not sure.
I went almost 4 days without an analog, until I got to the point that I was SO irritable, I was ready to rip my dogs head off because she was "smacking her mouth" and the sound of it was driving me insane! So, I smoked. I smoked a few that night.
The next morning, I was craving another one BAD, so I smoked one. Then I got in the shower to get ready for work and out of nowhere, came the panic attack while I was in the shower. I've been an absolute mess since then. I think I've managed to work 2 days since...my doc keeps writing me off work, and I see a psychiatrist tomorrow because I need MORE than just meds.
Sun-Mon, I was awake for over 24 hours because I couldn't sleep. Took an Ambien even (which usually knocks me out for at least 8 hours). I don't remember much of Monday evening at all. Then I crash for days, I have NO energy, I don't even get hungry sometimes and go days without eating...I'm such a mess and I'm tired of it.
I've been avoiding people..even my best friend. I don't log onto Facebook until the middle of the night when everyone I know is sleeping, just so I won't have to talk to anyone.
I used to be low on B-12 and took shots for it even. Stopped taking the shots a few years ago, and recent bloodwork shows normal levels, so that's not my answer unfortunately.
I've had probably about every test known to man kind ran on me in the past 10 years, and other than low iron many years ago, and the low B-12 for a while, nothing is ever wrong with me. So, the doc just gives me antidepressants and anti anxiety meds and sends me on my way. I've decided it's time to consult a specialist and see what she can do for me.
I know I need some behavioral based therapy, but I am so stubborn and hard headed...and I HATE change...so this is going to be a bumpy ride I'm sure...even though I know she's only going to do what's best for me. As much as I tell myself to be open minded, I know myself. *sigh* I need to change...but not sure if I can. Ya know?
It's scary and it's hard. But it is good to know we aren't alone and we can talk about it here. Thanks girls. Best wishes for all of you.