I started vaping back in 2008 or 2009, shortly after *both* parents had passed away from cancer (my mother led an extremely healthy lifestyle and didn't even smoke!) and I though for sure it would work. When I read the posts about cigalikes and such it's so nostalgic... I had an Njoy, a 501 kit, 801's, 901's, and finally eGo's (which was the 'be all, end all' of the vaping world at the time). Nothing got me off cigarettes. Not 24mg juices, not spending every penny we had (and then some) on various eliquids and equipment. Vaping was the last hope since all other methods (Nicorette, Chantix, Zyban, Nicotine Lozenges, 'cold turkey', seminar, hypnotism, etc.) had already failed miserably.
I have a COPD (chronic bronchitis) and around 2010 I had a 5 week bout with it, which is about how long it always takes to go away. I couldn't vape - not at all. Smoking obviously wasn't a good idea but I could smoke somewhat during my illness whereas vaping wasn't even an option. Every time I tried to vape first draw would send me into a 10 minute bout of choking. After I got better, I didn't go back to vaping again.
Skip ahead to this year... I've been smoking 2.5 - 3 PAD for 40 years now. My future son-in-law whom I tried to convert to vaping back in 2009 or thereabouts (and failed) decided to pick up vaping again and it worked for him this time! With only a couple minor cigarette mishaps, he's been vaping since June and is totally satisfied with it. So of course, he got me re-introduced to it! And here I am again, starting over with 1300mah batteries and aspire tanks, graduating to MVP2's, mech mods, kayfuns, Lemo's, drippers, big drippers, etc... and still smoking. Only this time I'm only using 12mg nic and can't increase. I was diagnosed with diabetes a few years back and nicotine is an absolute no-no for me (contricts blood flow). So I'm feeling kinda doomed right about now. I shouldn't smoke, I can't seem to quit, I'm not supposed to increase my juice level because of diabetes, though I did order some 18mg today . So yeah. I'm feeling really made of fail today. Especially when I'm told I just don't have any willpower. I suppose that is true.
I have every advantage. I don't have friends or co-workers, and family members do not smoke - I'm the only one - so no one is 'taunting' me with them. I have plenty of juice and plenty of devices to vape. I have tons of support from my husband, an ex-smoker (even though I'm overspending in hopes vaping will work), my daughter (a non smoker) and her fiancé (who is vaping). I read all the success stories and wonder what they're doing that I'm not doing.
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