Well, here I am after 40 plus years of analogues, ready to take the big step. Oh,I've been playing around,trying to quit for years,shrugging off the little voice that snidely commented on all the time,money,and years of worsening health. I felt bad,I smelled bad hated the guilt of the rising costs and the big bite out of my paycheck, the lines,wrinkles, general yuck feeling and the auto light up every morning.
Every time I got a cold, I could see the big bright oxygen tank looming in my future,then when I recovered, which took far longer every time, I shrugged and continued my habit. "not me,that won't be me". Right. The river of denial ran right through my back yard, sweeping all good intentions, resolutions,etc right along in its path. I stood on its banks and smoked. I searched for the cheapesst brands, had friends that visited the casinos buy me bargain cartons, even rolled pipe tobacco in order to cut costs. Never in all the years I smoked did I ever go a whole day without cigs. I smoked through two pregnancies,various illnesses, family tagedies, you name it, I smoked.
Well, no more. This last cold/bronchtis/sinus infection scared me enough I want to at least try my best. I don't know where I'll end up,but it's got to be better where I am now. This little soldier is armed with a decent ego system, lots of cool juices, and ECF to back me up when I falter. I am a winner.
Every time I got a cold, I could see the big bright oxygen tank looming in my future,then when I recovered, which took far longer every time, I shrugged and continued my habit. "not me,that won't be me". Right. The river of denial ran right through my back yard, sweeping all good intentions, resolutions,etc right along in its path. I stood on its banks and smoked. I searched for the cheapesst brands, had friends that visited the casinos buy me bargain cartons, even rolled pipe tobacco in order to cut costs. Never in all the years I smoked did I ever go a whole day without cigs. I smoked through two pregnancies,various illnesses, family tagedies, you name it, I smoked.
Well, no more. This last cold/bronchtis/sinus infection scared me enough I want to at least try my best. I don't know where I'll end up,but it's got to be better where I am now. This little soldier is armed with a decent ego system, lots of cool juices, and ECF to back me up when I falter. I am a winner.
