Something I have noticed for quite awhile is that sometimes I have a problem with the same mentality I had as a smoker. The fear and anxiety that I would feel when I was down to my last cigarette have somewhat carried over to vaping. The first month or so of vaping it was terrible, I started with the 510 Mega and I had plenty of juice and extra atties as well as a couple passthrough, but I was still terrified of being without a battery or "What if all my atties give out at once?" The major reason I have bought both eGo and Riva kits is because of that fear.
I know it's a very real fear for newbies before they have extras, but I think this is something more for me, it's an unrealistic fear for a very real addiction. Even though I didn't think to much of it because cigarettes are just a trip to the corner store, I always put alot of energy into making sure I had them. Those very rare times when I ran out, of course I went crazy, but I would do just about anything to get a pack; walk two miles to the store in the snow, eh, "No problem." I mean, I lived in fear of running out at times, it was like water to a drowned man.
I noticed that I still got that uptight feeling for the first 2-3 months that I vaped and even though, realistically, I had everything I need I felt compelled to buy extras and extras for the extras. For the past month this anxiety has been much more elusive and I'm thankful for it. Now I can seperate wants from "needs" more effectively, because I have all I need. Still, I will give myself a bit of money every month to spend on a want (if I have no needs) but it is so strange not to feel that compulsion that was developed over years of analog supply and demand.
I know it's a very real fear for newbies before they have extras, but I think this is something more for me, it's an unrealistic fear for a very real addiction. Even though I didn't think to much of it because cigarettes are just a trip to the corner store, I always put alot of energy into making sure I had them. Those very rare times when I ran out, of course I went crazy, but I would do just about anything to get a pack; walk two miles to the store in the snow, eh, "No problem." I mean, I lived in fear of running out at times, it was like water to a drowned man.
I noticed that I still got that uptight feeling for the first 2-3 months that I vaped and even though, realistically, I had everything I need I felt compelled to buy extras and extras for the extras. For the past month this anxiety has been much more elusive and I'm thankful for it. Now I can seperate wants from "needs" more effectively, because I have all I need. Still, I will give myself a bit of money every month to spend on a want (if I have no needs) but it is so strange not to feel that compulsion that was developed over years of analog supply and demand.
