This is not at all vape related. This is totally book related. I'm doing my last edit and I swear to God, I have reached the stage all authors must reach (according to my brother) which is a state of complete hatred towards it. 
This is my final edit, I know what has to be accomplished, and I even know how to do it. The thing is, this is also (probably) like my 8th edit, (if I'm being certain it's not more than that) and it's not a short book... In fact, I'm cutting it in half.
But I'm also like, the entire time, "I hate my writing, I hate this stupid story, everything about it sucks, I'm literally FORCING myself to do this because I know it will improve it, but it SUCKS." I can really only do a couple hours a day, which is okay, because honestly, going slower is smart, I just have absolutely no interest in the story, the anything, I'm literally pulling teeth to MAKE myself do it, because after you've edited something 8 times, if you don't finish the FINAL edit, you suck.
But, this either means that my final edit is GREAT because I'm coming from this totally objective perspective, where I'm like, YOU are a TOTAL fail as a writer and human being, Anna, so I CAN actually fix it.... BUT, it's EQUALLY possible that the stupid book just sucks. I have no way of knowing, LOL. In which case, the time spent on it isn't even VALUABLE, it's just a waste.
Oh well, either way, I'm going to finish, but I have definitely hit the point that I guess most writers hit, where I'm like, "This is IT. If I can't find a publisher, I'm DONE. I'm not editing one more word until someone pays me $$$ to do it. Not after THIS edit, LOL."
I had little idea that my final edit would be like this. Writing a book totally sucks. I know my editor wants me to do it, but MAN. Boy does this ever suck.... It's like this highly aversive task I sit down and do for a couple hours every day.
Oh well, at least I'm vaping, not smoking, LOL. I had fears the Final Edit would lead me back to smoking, but no, it leads me to complete DISGUST.
Anna
Anna
This is my final edit, I know what has to be accomplished, and I even know how to do it. The thing is, this is also (probably) like my 8th edit, (if I'm being certain it's not more than that) and it's not a short book... In fact, I'm cutting it in half. But I'm also like, the entire time, "I hate my writing, I hate this stupid story, everything about it sucks, I'm literally FORCING myself to do this because I know it will improve it, but it SUCKS." I can really only do a couple hours a day, which is okay, because honestly, going slower is smart, I just have absolutely no interest in the story, the anything, I'm literally pulling teeth to MAKE myself do it, because after you've edited something 8 times, if you don't finish the FINAL edit, you suck.
But, this either means that my final edit is GREAT because I'm coming from this totally objective perspective, where I'm like, YOU are a TOTAL fail as a writer and human being, Anna, so I CAN actually fix it.... BUT, it's EQUALLY possible that the stupid book just sucks. I have no way of knowing, LOL. In which case, the time spent on it isn't even VALUABLE, it's just a waste.
Oh well, either way, I'm going to finish, but I have definitely hit the point that I guess most writers hit, where I'm like, "This is IT. If I can't find a publisher, I'm DONE. I'm not editing one more word until someone pays me $$$ to do it. Not after THIS edit, LOL."
I had little idea that my final edit would be like this. Writing a book totally sucks. I know my editor wants me to do it, but MAN. Boy does this ever suck.... It's like this highly aversive task I sit down and do for a couple hours every day.
Oh well, at least I'm vaping, not smoking, LOL. I had fears the Final Edit would lead me back to smoking, but no, it leads me to complete DISGUST.
Anna
Anna
