Sometimes this blog will be about vaping/e-cig things & sometimes it will be about the changes in my life since I began vaping. If via my own experiences one person is inspired in their own life - then it's worth it. I QUIT smoking forever 4 months ago & I had no idea, exactly the enormous impact it would have on my life. More about that another day. Recently, my mother became sick and we nearly lost her. There is nothing like seeing someone you love laying in a bed connected to tubes, beeps everywhere and being sentenced to an oxygen tank 24/7 to snap your chit INTO FOCUS. She had a bleeding ulcer located right on her main artery. Over 7 days - she took 5 liters of blood via transfusion. Those days all so touch and go & dipping to the saddest of places - you think, you observe & it changes your life. There have been SO MANY positive changes in my life, all of them in the last 4 months & some of the MOST IMPORTANT things - in the last weeks! I am counting my blessings - for they are many.
Reflecting thoughts - things brought into a sharper focus a journey I was already on but with much needed clarity. DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF - & at the end of the day - IT'S REALLY ALL SMALL STUFF. Take a closer look and be honest about it. Life is short - BE POSITIVE. Live life to the best of your ability EVERY DAY, have ZERO REGRETS. LOVE MORE - it matters not if who you love returns the love - for that is conditional love. Love anyway. For love to grow in its most beautiful state - it must be UNCONDITIONAL. It will always returned to you - even if in unrelated ways. Stay POSITIVE - even when surrounded by negativity - BE POSITIVE. Be in the present ALWAYS. Negative has a drastic effect on your being. Living positive intentions will change your life. TAKE MORE RISKS - for the thing that you take a risk for, could be the thing that was WORTH IT & makes your life so much better. What's the worst thing that could happen-failing? I've failed a lot in my life & I'm still BREATHING & life is still moving forward & I'm a better person for the lessons I learn. The worst thing-living with REGRETS -things you wish you would have done - but didn't try or didn't try hard enough - THIS IS THE WORST THING. Give life all you have. MAKE MISTAKES - Without them you do not grow. NEVER take a person or situation FOR GRANTED. LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART - PAY ATTENTION. TRUST WITH YOUR HEART. LOVE MORE. GIVE FREELY - BE GENEROUS. LIVE LIFE WITH A KIND SPIRIT - even if you are the only one doing so - it just doesn't matter. How other people perceive you - you cannot control this and why would you want to?
Let go of WORRY. For me this is a BIG ONE. Worrying will get you nowhere and fast - it's such a negative emotion-it will stunt "emotional growth". I've always been someone who worried a lot. Right now, I'm so very focused on how to spin this into a positive thing to move forward - trying to see what's really going on - what's at the root of it all. First thoughts are - only worry about the things you have control over - and change it. You can only change yourself - you will never be able to change another and you shouldn't want to. Change comes from within all of us individually. This seemed easier said than done - while true and important - I've slowly been gravitating to this, especially in the last 4 months - but instinctively felt - I was missing the point. Old habits are hard to break (or are they?) and I've had some big dips lately where my first and continued reaction was WORRY. Out of the blue recently it HIT ME BIG TIME. When I worry about something I have no control over - what am I really saying about the thing or person I'm worrying about? It struck me that, am I not really saying that I do not believe in/have faith in that thing to handle itself? That the people I worry, love & care about the most don't have what it takes to make it happen on their own? OMG - & OH CHIT!! SO NOT THE CASE! To anyone that is still reading this maybe a DUH thing - but for me it was like a lightning bolt. I can be SLOW at times. THIS THOUGHT did the trick - & it was IMMEDIATE. WORRY - RELEASED. The LAST thing I would ever hope to do, by my own behavior is say or do such a thing - especially for those who you hold close and who's lives make a difference in my own life! I feel this is EXACTLY what all my years of worrying has really been saying. How truly horrible. In that exact moment - at least 5 different people & a few situations in my life came to mind & it was a very humbling thought & suddenly - I TRULY LET GO - like a burn from the stove! Clearly - a message I never wanted to convey - EVER. Just like that - in an instant - life is different for me yet again & now LIGHTER. All I ever need to do is show the real positive feelings I have in these situations/people - because I truly do believe in & have faith in these same people & same situations for they are important to me for a reason - because they are wonderful & add meaning to my life - my chosen family & friends - those who you hold dearest to you. This is what they should be seeing and feeling from me.
BE YOURSELF - BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE. Do not worry about fitting in or what people think about you - it matters NOT. This is one of the BIGGEST thoughts. I always feel different. Well, I AM DIFFERENT & I don't want to be like ANYBODY ELSE. I am uniquely ME & I like it! How else will I ever leave my mark on this world if I am not DIFFERENT. I AM outside the NORM & it's just the way it is & I gotta embrace this! I do not want to be like anything or anyone else & I really do not care if I'm compared to the norm & deemed unusual. I gotta own who I am & ROCK IT OUT!!
RELEASE FEARS - here's a thought for you - I've been holding close in mind for a few months now - it jumped at me from the pages of a book & STUCK LIKE GLUE - all of our thoughts stem from 2 basic emotions - fear or love. Every thought. Think about this long & hard. Heal your thoughts with LOVE - it will change your life. Somehow I've found more courage than I knew I had these last months, and one by one (and with the help and support of others - blessings) fear has less of a place in my life - more true today than ever before.
LIVE HEALTHY - BODY - MIND - SPIRIT - we only have ONE BODY - ONE MIND in this life - again LIFE IS SHORT. To our benefit - our bodies are amazing works of art and we owe it to ourselves to treat them better.
HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR!!! - Can't live without this - it makes everything BETTER!! LAUGH - FROM YOUR GUT - ALOT! Your brain/body needs laughter!
The day I quit smoking - the NEXT day brought about the most amazing rush of enlightenment &confidence boost - it's really indescribable and something for another blog. In a flash - I felt if I can do THIS THING - well, then I can do anything. Since then - I've had some truly incredible experiences - my life has moved forward in leaps & bounds. I have found resolve to do things I never thought I could do. The happiness was so strong & so hard to contain & leaked out in ways I couldn't even begin to control if I had wanted to. ZERO REGRETS! I've met some amazing people - one specifically - but ALL to this very day - have made my life a better place to be & I will be forever grateful for the life experiences I'm having - have had & with all my heart, hope that I continue to have in this journey called LIFE! Friends are priceless life treasures we are rarely gifted with. Thank you all SO MUCH - you just don't realize the impact.
That Friday afternoon - when my mom was put on an oxygen tank for the rest of her life - ROCKED ME TO MY CORE. She smoked 3 pks/day for well over 30 years - I took one look at that tank/tubes - & my one & only thought was - THIS WILL NEVER BE ME. I left that hospital a changed woman - yet again - in 4 months.
If YOU can quit smoking - THE SKY TRULY IS THE LIMIT - Give yourself the CREDIT YOU SO DESERVE for this is an amazing feat!! DO THE THING YOU THINK YOU CAN'T DO. RIDE THE WAVE. HAVE FAITH. BE POSITIVE - LAUGH - LOVE MORE - HAVE NO FEAR AND MOST IMPORTANTLY - LET WORRY GO!! We are all stronger than we think we are - this is a fact.
Until my next post - Blue
Reflecting thoughts - things brought into a sharper focus a journey I was already on but with much needed clarity. DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF - & at the end of the day - IT'S REALLY ALL SMALL STUFF. Take a closer look and be honest about it. Life is short - BE POSITIVE. Live life to the best of your ability EVERY DAY, have ZERO REGRETS. LOVE MORE - it matters not if who you love returns the love - for that is conditional love. Love anyway. For love to grow in its most beautiful state - it must be UNCONDITIONAL. It will always returned to you - even if in unrelated ways. Stay POSITIVE - even when surrounded by negativity - BE POSITIVE. Be in the present ALWAYS. Negative has a drastic effect on your being. Living positive intentions will change your life. TAKE MORE RISKS - for the thing that you take a risk for, could be the thing that was WORTH IT & makes your life so much better. What's the worst thing that could happen-failing? I've failed a lot in my life & I'm still BREATHING & life is still moving forward & I'm a better person for the lessons I learn. The worst thing-living with REGRETS -things you wish you would have done - but didn't try or didn't try hard enough - THIS IS THE WORST THING. Give life all you have. MAKE MISTAKES - Without them you do not grow. NEVER take a person or situation FOR GRANTED. LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART - PAY ATTENTION. TRUST WITH YOUR HEART. LOVE MORE. GIVE FREELY - BE GENEROUS. LIVE LIFE WITH A KIND SPIRIT - even if you are the only one doing so - it just doesn't matter. How other people perceive you - you cannot control this and why would you want to?
Let go of WORRY. For me this is a BIG ONE. Worrying will get you nowhere and fast - it's such a negative emotion-it will stunt "emotional growth". I've always been someone who worried a lot. Right now, I'm so very focused on how to spin this into a positive thing to move forward - trying to see what's really going on - what's at the root of it all. First thoughts are - only worry about the things you have control over - and change it. You can only change yourself - you will never be able to change another and you shouldn't want to. Change comes from within all of us individually. This seemed easier said than done - while true and important - I've slowly been gravitating to this, especially in the last 4 months - but instinctively felt - I was missing the point. Old habits are hard to break (or are they?) and I've had some big dips lately where my first and continued reaction was WORRY. Out of the blue recently it HIT ME BIG TIME. When I worry about something I have no control over - what am I really saying about the thing or person I'm worrying about? It struck me that, am I not really saying that I do not believe in/have faith in that thing to handle itself? That the people I worry, love & care about the most don't have what it takes to make it happen on their own? OMG - & OH CHIT!! SO NOT THE CASE! To anyone that is still reading this maybe a DUH thing - but for me it was like a lightning bolt. I can be SLOW at times. THIS THOUGHT did the trick - & it was IMMEDIATE. WORRY - RELEASED. The LAST thing I would ever hope to do, by my own behavior is say or do such a thing - especially for those who you hold close and who's lives make a difference in my own life! I feel this is EXACTLY what all my years of worrying has really been saying. How truly horrible. In that exact moment - at least 5 different people & a few situations in my life came to mind & it was a very humbling thought & suddenly - I TRULY LET GO - like a burn from the stove! Clearly - a message I never wanted to convey - EVER. Just like that - in an instant - life is different for me yet again & now LIGHTER. All I ever need to do is show the real positive feelings I have in these situations/people - because I truly do believe in & have faith in these same people & same situations for they are important to me for a reason - because they are wonderful & add meaning to my life - my chosen family & friends - those who you hold dearest to you. This is what they should be seeing and feeling from me.
BE YOURSELF - BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE. Do not worry about fitting in or what people think about you - it matters NOT. This is one of the BIGGEST thoughts. I always feel different. Well, I AM DIFFERENT & I don't want to be like ANYBODY ELSE. I am uniquely ME & I like it! How else will I ever leave my mark on this world if I am not DIFFERENT. I AM outside the NORM & it's just the way it is & I gotta embrace this! I do not want to be like anything or anyone else & I really do not care if I'm compared to the norm & deemed unusual. I gotta own who I am & ROCK IT OUT!!
RELEASE FEARS - here's a thought for you - I've been holding close in mind for a few months now - it jumped at me from the pages of a book & STUCK LIKE GLUE - all of our thoughts stem from 2 basic emotions - fear or love. Every thought. Think about this long & hard. Heal your thoughts with LOVE - it will change your life. Somehow I've found more courage than I knew I had these last months, and one by one (and with the help and support of others - blessings) fear has less of a place in my life - more true today than ever before.
LIVE HEALTHY - BODY - MIND - SPIRIT - we only have ONE BODY - ONE MIND in this life - again LIFE IS SHORT. To our benefit - our bodies are amazing works of art and we owe it to ourselves to treat them better.
HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR!!! - Can't live without this - it makes everything BETTER!! LAUGH - FROM YOUR GUT - ALOT! Your brain/body needs laughter!
The day I quit smoking - the NEXT day brought about the most amazing rush of enlightenment &confidence boost - it's really indescribable and something for another blog. In a flash - I felt if I can do THIS THING - well, then I can do anything. Since then - I've had some truly incredible experiences - my life has moved forward in leaps & bounds. I have found resolve to do things I never thought I could do. The happiness was so strong & so hard to contain & leaked out in ways I couldn't even begin to control if I had wanted to. ZERO REGRETS! I've met some amazing people - one specifically - but ALL to this very day - have made my life a better place to be & I will be forever grateful for the life experiences I'm having - have had & with all my heart, hope that I continue to have in this journey called LIFE! Friends are priceless life treasures we are rarely gifted with. Thank you all SO MUCH - you just don't realize the impact.
That Friday afternoon - when my mom was put on an oxygen tank for the rest of her life - ROCKED ME TO MY CORE. She smoked 3 pks/day for well over 30 years - I took one look at that tank/tubes - & my one & only thought was - THIS WILL NEVER BE ME. I left that hospital a changed woman - yet again - in 4 months.
If YOU can quit smoking - THE SKY TRULY IS THE LIMIT - Give yourself the CREDIT YOU SO DESERVE for this is an amazing feat!! DO THE THING YOU THINK YOU CAN'T DO. RIDE THE WAVE. HAVE FAITH. BE POSITIVE - LAUGH - LOVE MORE - HAVE NO FEAR AND MOST IMPORTANTLY - LET WORRY GO!! We are all stronger than we think we are - this is a fact.
Until my next post - Blue
