Hi out there!
I'm relatively new to ECF, and I've met so many helpful and wonderful people here. I think I've found my home forum.
I recently joined Christian Vapers, and the fellowship there is comforting to me. I'm glad my request to join the group was accepted. I had felt a little out of place here before I found CV. I don't know that many Christians who smoke. Personally, I've always been embarrassed by my smoking. How can I witness to someone? I felt it sent the wrong message, and I am not a perfect example of a Christian by any means. But now that I have discovered e-cigs--and I believe without doubt God led me here--I feel like I'm ready to take a big step in faith, and finally just let go, and let God lead me where He wants to be.
For years I had difficulty turning things over to God. I trusted Him implicitly, but I did not trust myself at all. Which is a contradiction in itself. But I finally realized the lie for what it was--just that--a lie. The enemy tried to keep me down, confused, discouraged, and trying so desperately to keep control of my life. He threw things at me that he thought would break me. But he didn't count on my precious Savior shielding me from all of the tricks and lies he tried to make me believe. I've been through a trial by fire, so to speak, and my faith did take a beating. But by the Grace of God, I've come through those trials, and out the other side to discover my faith much stronger, and my trust in Him so much more complete. I praise Him for all He has done in this life He gave back to me.
I've survived cancer 3 times, by the Grace of God. There were many times when I felt I couldn't take one more day. The maelstrom of emotion was overwhelming. I was afraid to actually express these feelings for fear I would completely go off the deep end.
My last fight with cancer was the most difficult.
I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in August of 2001. This was just 20 months after my battle with breast cancer.
I underwent surgery to remove an ovarian cyst, and the cancer was discovered then. I needed an emergency hysterectomy due to the spread of the cancer. I had never had children, and now I never would.
Prior to the surgery, Cancer wasn't even mentioned. I had no warning of even the possibility of cancer. My oncologist told me it was Stage 3C, but it could be treated.
After many months of complications, infections, and surgeries, I was slowly healing physically. Emotionally, it has taken me much longer to come to terms with the loss. To say it has been a struggle would be putting it mildly. But God has carried me through it all. I'm alive today because of His Grace. For what purpose, I don't know as yet. He will reveal that to me in His time.
I'm relatively new to ECF, and I've met so many helpful and wonderful people here. I think I've found my home forum.
I recently joined Christian Vapers, and the fellowship there is comforting to me. I'm glad my request to join the group was accepted. I had felt a little out of place here before I found CV. I don't know that many Christians who smoke. Personally, I've always been embarrassed by my smoking. How can I witness to someone? I felt it sent the wrong message, and I am not a perfect example of a Christian by any means. But now that I have discovered e-cigs--and I believe without doubt God led me here--I feel like I'm ready to take a big step in faith, and finally just let go, and let God lead me where He wants to be.
For years I had difficulty turning things over to God. I trusted Him implicitly, but I did not trust myself at all. Which is a contradiction in itself. But I finally realized the lie for what it was--just that--a lie. The enemy tried to keep me down, confused, discouraged, and trying so desperately to keep control of my life. He threw things at me that he thought would break me. But he didn't count on my precious Savior shielding me from all of the tricks and lies he tried to make me believe. I've been through a trial by fire, so to speak, and my faith did take a beating. But by the Grace of God, I've come through those trials, and out the other side to discover my faith much stronger, and my trust in Him so much more complete. I praise Him for all He has done in this life He gave back to me.
I've survived cancer 3 times, by the Grace of God. There were many times when I felt I couldn't take one more day. The maelstrom of emotion was overwhelming. I was afraid to actually express these feelings for fear I would completely go off the deep end.
My last fight with cancer was the most difficult.
I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in August of 2001. This was just 20 months after my battle with breast cancer.
I underwent surgery to remove an ovarian cyst, and the cancer was discovered then. I needed an emergency hysterectomy due to the spread of the cancer. I had never had children, and now I never would.
Prior to the surgery, Cancer wasn't even mentioned. I had no warning of even the possibility of cancer. My oncologist told me it was Stage 3C, but it could be treated.
After many months of complications, infections, and surgeries, I was slowly healing physically. Emotionally, it has taken me much longer to come to terms with the loss. To say it has been a struggle would be putting it mildly. But God has carried me through it all. I'm alive today because of His Grace. For what purpose, I don't know as yet. He will reveal that to me in His time.
