Late night mindless rambling

I havent needed anxiety Meds in over 2 weeks but tonight I stirred up a bunch of stuff inside me. I won't even vape around my pets because who knows the long term side effects yet. I had to make my confesion and get it off my chest. I'm hoping I can move on now and not stay stuck in grief. I really miss my little furry therapist. If id only been aware...IF Id known if I was putting my little friend in grave danger that would have motivated me to quit. I know I have an addictive personality and glad I didn't take up drinking...2 nights at the Vfw showed me I was headed straight for trouble. Happy thoughts now... I'm thankful for this forum and all the people on it. I had no idea how big vaping is! I know I'm the only Vaper on the mountain. That's ok. I'm going to try to sleep knowing I won't smoke tomorrow. Being diagnosed with bilateral pulmonary granuloma should be enough reason to quit but damn addiction is powerful! vaping gave me the way to break free and I can only feel loads of gratitude.Peace & Love..Zzzz. ..