I've been a very enthusiastic vaper for the past few months. My mum bought me a starter kit (E-Lite) which I was quite impressed with. However, I wanted to lose the association between the taste of a cigarette and a nicotine hit, so did some research and went with another cig-a-like brand with a better choice of flavour. I was impressed that they also sold empty cartos which I could fill up myself and went on an internet hunt for juices. I found then much better than my first e-cig, some of the flavours were delicious and I started switching more and more from the stinkies to the e version. I spent many a quiet afternoon at work searching juice vendors and making a wish list of all the flavours I wanted to try out. I was still smoking stinkies, but definitely less than before (I went from 20 a day down to about 5) and was very impressed with myself and the e-cigs.
Then disaster struck. I was made redundant. I went straight back on to the stinkies. Then I had to give up my flat. And I had essays due for university. I stayed on the stinkies, I was soooooo stressed out!I felt really really guilty for going back to the smokes. But you know what? I didn't enjoy them like I did previously; the stinkies just didn't seem the same to me. So to encourage myself to switch, I ordered an ego type (1100mA) battery, some clearos and stronger juice. I nearly fainted with pleasure once I started vaping my banoffee cream pie flavour. I now have 2 batteries and a couple of tasty juices. I can't afford to go on a massive spending spree (although I'm sorely tempted), that willhave to wait until I get another job. But I'm mostly back off the stinkies for now, enjoying getting my vape on and astounded at how differently I feel about smoking.
I had an appointment at the dentist the other day. It was the first time since I was about 14 that I didn't take a pack of cigarettes out with me. You'll all know how that feels, I felt free of them for the first time in years. And not only that, even when the appointments were running late I didn't get that twitchy "I'll nip out" impulse. I stayed put. Near the end I needed a hit of nic, but the first thought that passed through my head was "Can't wait to get out of this chair and have a vape!"
I still have my emergency stinkies, as I'm still not totally mentally "there" yet. I'm out for beers later and will take two, just in case (I'm a nightmare for the ciggies once I've had one drink!). But that's ok. I haven't had a cig since Tuesday (and even then I only had two), so one or two tonight won't be a huge disaster. I'll vape away in the hope that I won't want one, though (batteries are charging away as I type!)
As a wise person once said to me, "Take it one day at a time. If that's too much for you to handle, take it one hour at a time, or a minute at a time. Whichever helps you get through." Teeny tiny baby steps, that's all I need to do.
Then disaster struck. I was made redundant. I went straight back on to the stinkies. Then I had to give up my flat. And I had essays due for university. I stayed on the stinkies, I was soooooo stressed out!I felt really really guilty for going back to the smokes. But you know what? I didn't enjoy them like I did previously; the stinkies just didn't seem the same to me. So to encourage myself to switch, I ordered an ego type (1100mA) battery, some clearos and stronger juice. I nearly fainted with pleasure once I started vaping my banoffee cream pie flavour. I now have 2 batteries and a couple of tasty juices. I can't afford to go on a massive spending spree (although I'm sorely tempted), that willhave to wait until I get another job. But I'm mostly back off the stinkies for now, enjoying getting my vape on and astounded at how differently I feel about smoking.
I had an appointment at the dentist the other day. It was the first time since I was about 14 that I didn't take a pack of cigarettes out with me. You'll all know how that feels, I felt free of them for the first time in years. And not only that, even when the appointments were running late I didn't get that twitchy "I'll nip out" impulse. I stayed put. Near the end I needed a hit of nic, but the first thought that passed through my head was "Can't wait to get out of this chair and have a vape!"
I still have my emergency stinkies, as I'm still not totally mentally "there" yet. I'm out for beers later and will take two, just in case (I'm a nightmare for the ciggies once I've had one drink!). But that's ok. I haven't had a cig since Tuesday (and even then I only had two), so one or two tonight won't be a huge disaster. I'll vape away in the hope that I won't want one, though (batteries are charging away as I type!)
As a wise person once said to me, "Take it one day at a time. If that's too much for you to handle, take it one hour at a time, or a minute at a time. Whichever helps you get through." Teeny tiny baby steps, that's all I need to do.
