Lithium. Yes... possibly.
I just smoked another camel and I didn't feel that intoxication... weird... ?
But I've been smoking all day, the soaked tobacco.
In fact, I have NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON ANYMORE.
I tried the ecig, with the "HIGH" catridge (i ordered the totally wicked ecig)... and it didn't seem to do much? at all... ?
I don't know if I'm in withdrawal, or I don't know much of anything anymore. I suppose just more experimentation with everything I have will figure it out honestly.
One idea that is occuring to me, is that... it is possible with the soaked tobacco I'm not really getting everything I want... bummer.
Its hard to say how I'm feeling is due to any life circumstances, or lack of certain alkaloids, etc...
But for some reason I kinda just want to smoke regular cigs for right now. And for experimentation purposes, that might help me see what I'm after.
I definitely don't feel any feeling of "weakness" from the ecig at all... at least from the half of a day that I experimented with it. So that might kinda throw my theory out the window that nicotine is a poison which hits you and thats why you feel relaxed... The soaked tobacco I'm not sure anymore exactly what its doing or if its doing really anything... I'm just not sure. I was around a lot of people tonight. Mainly smoking the soaked tobacco... then later I took a train back to my car, and during the long walk back to my car kept puffing on my high strength ecig cartridge... and I didn't really feel much from it.
I really should get that passionflower and try
vaping it... because I'm not sure if there really is an easy way to somehow get rid of the nicotine from the tobacco, while leaving all the other alkaloids that I want. Still, I have no idea what I'm even looking for anymore it seems...
Maybe I'm looking for the B vitamins that tobacco has a lot of... and when I soaked it or cooked it, those things were taken out.
I didn't really seem to feel any brightening effects after I kept smoking the soaked tobacco...but my sister said when she smoked it (first thing she smoked in the morning, she's not really a heavy smoker at all though)...she said she felt like her motor neurons were turning in the center of her brain. Maybe after i kept smoking it I just got used to that... so I didn't notice a change.
I also wonder the more you smoke, the less ability you have to absorb what your smoking in the first place...because your lungs get all coated in tar... maybe thats why some people have to smoke constantly, because their lungs don't clean themselves up and they get up to 2-3 packs a day just to get their nicotine fix. Maybe it doesn't have much to do with nicotine tolerance perse...
That would explain how some people are able to slowly go down on their nicotine e-
juice dosages over time as they continue
vaping. I don't know.
I wish I had more to say, but for now like I said, I'm going to just smoke regular cigarettes. I don't feel depressed perse right now, but in some ways I'm starting to feel that blah feeling again... after a couple days of not really smoking regular tobacco. Last night however I almost felt on top of the world... Maybe placebo stuff thinking I had found the holy grail. I really felt almost manic... I also slept really well last night and had vivid dreams... I think because I hadn't gotten much nicotine in awhile.
2 mornings ago I had 10 camel crushes within 1.5 hours... so maybe if i was getting MAOI's from that... they lasted me a good day or almost 2 days... and smoking the soaked and cooked tobacco was just doing the hand-to-mouth smoking ritual for me...
And then when the MAOI's wore off, now I'm starting to feel sorta blahish again... its hard to say really.
Maybe I should just get that CigRx stuff and try that out. That would be interesting to really try. I guess I could do the snus again too... try that out. Later...