Analog free for 4 days and paranoid

[wickedalibi]

I live in a very small town in Montana and have tried to quit analogs using vaporizing 2 other times. The only way I can get juice, pieces, and parts is to order them. I have 4 setups currently: a puresmoker 510 w/ 40 prefilled carts, (my first ecig), a 155 penstyle w/fillable carts from besteciggy, (my second ecig), a plastic box mod, and a Big Chuck w/ about 70mls of juice and 6 extra attys, I ordered a ProVari with all the fixins two days ago. The 510 and the 155 are sitting in an open box to be shipped to my Dad so he can give them a try. I only have one set of batteries for the box mod and 2 batteries for the Big Chuck (which is what I am currently dripping into). The Big Chuck has a little bit of a wonky atty connection but works just fine. I am four days into being analog free. I think the vv ProVari w/ a atty tank is the machine for me and will be my main man. So I ordered one and am not so patiently waiting for it.

I am totally paranoid about everything going doa all at once, so I can't even ship the box to my Dad! I don't want any excuse to go and get another pack of analogs. In my 33 year smoking career I have seriously tried to quit 6 times, cold turkey, the patch, gum, and zoloft. I ended up wearing a patch, chewing gum and smoking an analog all at the same time. I have been analog free for 6 months a couple of times but the "OMG I want a cigarette" never got better and only increased with each and every passing day. (day 186 was worse than day 1) Quitting for that long and going back made me feel like a unintelligent, disgusted, failure. I don't ever want to feel like that again. My mother equates it with her dieting. She feels the same way about gaining a few pounds after doing well on a diet. Does everyone feel this way at first?

I hope when my ProVari gets here I will be able to ship the box to my Dad. Then I will start my savings for my backup ProVari, and then it's backup and maybe ohh I don't know a another back up.

I am just venting but this is a wonderful site and reading all the wonderful information and success stories from everyone on here has helped me immensely.

Thanks for letting me vent,
Wick

 

[hairball]

Don't feel like a failure. Every time you tried, it was cigs that didn't get smoked. Me...I didn't even try. It wasn't until ecigs entered my life that I gave it all up. The ProVari is a nice model. DH uses the 2 that we have...the others are all mine..LOL. Get some extra batteries and attys/cartos for it and you're all set. Don't worry about everything going dead at the same time. At least your Dad will get the chance to try vaping and might want a better PV like yourself...at least you're giving him a cheap way to try it out.

 

[doots]

Congrats wick on quitting analogs.. You are goning to find a whole new world with the Pro Vari than what you have been using.
Just hang in there a day at a time and soon you wont even think about analogs.. I smoked longer (more years) than you and quit the day my first 510 arrived and thats been about 3 years ago now. Have never touched another analog.
Dont be worried that you will run out of stuff. Just keep extra attys, juice and batts on hand and a backup pv of course.
Good success to you! Im glad you have had success so far.

 

[aka_Queenie]

I can relate to the paranoia. In just over a week we now have 4 models. *And* nic gum *and* lozenges if they all die at once. Most likely just my OCD...

 

[RudyVapour]

No shame in being prepared, wick! I always bring extra stuff with me to work, just in case. Because I know if I didn't have my vape, I'd be right back on the tobacco train hahaha and that just can't happen! I'm sure you'll do great, it's so easy, and enjoyable...I actually tried a smoke for the first time after a month of vaping and it tasted sooo horrible...don't know how I did it all those years! Keep calm and Vape on!

 

[RandaPandaBear]

I live in a very small town in Montana and have tried to quit analogs using vaporizing 2 other times. The only way I can get juice, pieces, and parts is to order them. I have 4 setups currently: a puresmoker 510 w/ 40 prefilled carts, (my first ecig), a 155 penstyle w/fillable carts from besteciggy, (my second ecig), a plastic box mod, and a Big Chuck w/ about 70mls of juice and 6 extra attys, I ordered a ProVari with all the fixins two days ago. The 510 and the 155 are sitting in an open box to be shipped to my Dad so he can give them a try. I only have one set of batteries for the box mod and 2 batteries for the Big Chuck (which is what I am currently dripping into). The Big Chuck has a little bit of a wonky atty connection but works just fine. I am four days into being analog free. I think the vv ProVari w/ a atty tank is the machine for me and will be my main man. So I ordered one and am not so patiently waiting for it.

I am totally paranoid about everything going doa all at once, so I can't even ship the box to my Dad! I don't want any excuse to go and get another pack of analogs. In my 33 year smoking career I have seriously tried to quit 6 times, cold turkey, the patch, gum, and zoloft. I ended up wearing a patch, chewing gum and smoking an analog all at the same time. I have been analog free for 6 months a couple of times but the "OMG I want a cigarette" never got better and only increased with each and every passing day. (day 186 was worse than day 1) Quitting for that long and going back made me feel like a unintelligent, disgusted, failure. I don't ever want to feel like that again. My mother equates it with her dieting. She feels the same way about gaining a few pounds after doing well on a diet. Does everyone feel this way at first?

I hope when my ProVari gets here I will be able to ship the box to my Dad. Then I will start my savings for my backup ProVari, and then it's backup and maybe ohh I don't know a another back up.

I am just venting but this is a wonderful site and reading all the wonderful information and success stories from everyone on here has helped me immensely.

Thanks for letting me vent,
Wick

Pardon my french, but you sound like one big ball of anxiety and I want to give you a hug and a Xanax.

seriously, go you. pat yourself on the back, you deserve it. stock up with whatever you need. most of us go crazy at first anyway. no shame in having backups. the desperation you have in staying off analogs is exactly what will keep you going. Relax, take a deep breath (and a vape ) and let it out one big whoosh at a time. Stock up, it'll make you feel better.

 

[RandaPandaBear]

all joking aside, some of you might benefit from talking to a counselor and maybe getting some anti anxiety meds. seriously. there's freedom from worry I promise you. I was there too.

LOVE LOVE LOVE all around. And pats on the back, and cheers, and smiles. We will be here to lift you up while you fly, and pick you up if you fall.

 

[wickedalibi]

Thanks Everyone,
Yikes I am down to 1 atty....I ordered a bunch extra 4 days ago and they still won't get here for 2 more days, along with my ProVari. Anyone have any extra xanax?????

 

[CES]

I have backups for my backups...

I hope the provari gives you some peace of mind.