Hi Boris,
This might be too late for this semester, but maybe it'll help you next semester or someone else...
I wasn't able to get through college, and I tried three different times, oh so many years ago, so first off realize there's life without college. For me, that's been a much better life, suited to my personality and way of working.
I've found for myself - I put a lot of pressure on myself to "make" myself do something I don't really want to do. Eventually the pain of the pressure will overcome the pain of doing something boring, miserable, tedious. BUT in every case, I'm then pretty miserable. Sucky day to day life...
NOW - I "have" to prepare a tax form for my business - as an example... I don't enjoy doing it, it's tedious, but very important. I focus on why I love my business, how wonderful it is to have the freedom I've created in my life, and how blessed I am that the most tedious thing I "have" to do is this tax form. I look at why I WANT to get this done, and start building a case for how good it'll feel to have this out of my hair, challenge myself to figure out how fast I can do it, think of a reward to give myself when it's done, and when possible enlist others to give me a pat on the back for getting it done too. Sometimes I have to break things down: OK, I'll do ten minutes of this boring thing, then I'll give myself permission to do ten minutes of something I love. I use a timer for both, by the way, and find that I often don't want to stop doing the unpleasant thing once I'm into it - the blessing of hyperfocus.
I look for ways to get fascinated by the process of what I "have" to do, and look for ways to do it either better, faster, or easier, or to get someone else to do it for me while I do something they hate - this is never ending has helped me in about a thousand ways in life. Sometimes I trade money, sometimes time, sometimes I figure out something so easy I get a kick out of doing it the new easy way. Sometimes, I just need someone to do it with - I enjoy one-on-one social interactions, and get many unpleasant tasks completed while working with someone else.
When all of these things fail, and with some projects they do, I go back to the core of "What do I really want here, and why am I doing x, if what I want is y?" So many times in my life I've tried to make myself want what everyone else says I'm supposed to want. The truth is, I'm always doing what I want to do. If I'm NOT completing a project, it's because I don't want to. I've never had to figure out a way to make myself wipe my ...., even though the task is tedious, boring, repetitive, and unpleasant. I want to be clean much more than I want to avoid the tediousness of that particular repetitive task. When you list life as a series of wants, you'll start to find ease and clarity in the what's-next-ever-changing menu of possibilities of life.
And I've become an admitter: I recognize early on what isn't going to happen, and I don't try to pretend I'll be able to figure out a way to make myself do it. I've become very kind to myself, and very respectful of what I love to do, and what I don't love to do. If someone tries to pressure me to say yes to something I know in my heart I won't do, I laugh and let them know - "I spent many decades of my life trying to be the person you seem to want me to be right now, and I can tell you it just won't work for me. I'd rather be honest with you now, and give you and me the opportunity to figure out something that will work." This alone has spared me and those in my life a TON of grief. I don't cut myself SOME slack, I cut myself ALL THE SLACK IN THE WORLD... and I encourage others to do the same. The less we judge ourselves and others, the clearer we get with what we want, and the clearer we can see how to get there from here. And there's the added benefit of our day to day and moment to moment experience of life is much happier. One guaranteed result of judging is misery.
Hope something in here is useful for you!
Warmest,
Ronda
