Pause, breathe, it will be okay.
My story...
I knew that I wanted to make sure that I didn't have an excuse to buy a pack of cigs, so I prepared. I got familiar with my system and then got a back-up in case the first died. No excuses.
I picked up a car charger. I put a complete system with about 3ml in a used bottle. The complete system went in to the car. No excuses.
Whatever tank I got for use as a primary, I got a spare for the car, too. Because everything is the same, I don't have to worry about compatibility.
For juice, I got a bottle or two of "stronger" nic content juice. I had to show myself that vaping would work. I needed that confidence. I also got several bottles of juices at what I thought would be my normal nic comparison to smoking a cig. For me, these were 24mg and 18mg juice.
I just vaped to cover my urges. If my "urges" ecome every 10 minutes, switch to a stronger juice.
Hope helps.
My first systems were Vision Spinners and Protank II tanks. Oh, I bought extra coils... No excuses
One day I smoked, the next day I was a vaper.