Brooke, I know you feel right now like you really want the ecig to "feel" as much like an analog as possilbe, but give yourself time.
We all go through it, and it does get better. I could not even tolerate the feel or taste of an analog now. I know, I test myself from time to time, and I cannot even stand to light one.
For over 37 years, I barely ever had a moment where I didn't have one in my fingers, but it did not take long to break that habit, and now, I can barely remember why I ever liked it. Smoking tobacco NEVER gave me the pleasure that vaping does. NEVER EVER ! It was a demon in my life.
So give it time, and be patient with yourself. You will probably soon be wanting even bigger, better units with more vaper and longer battery life, and you will find such a variety of PV's out there to enjoy.
Some of us vape the same unit all day, some of us have a variety that satifies us.
Enjoy the adventure.
By the way, that feeling that you have to hold it between your lips and it's too heavy, well that will evolve and you should soon get to the point that the need to do that will be replaced by the ritual of vaping.
Again, welcome to our world of pioneers in one of the most satisfying adventures in our lives.