Hi! I'm Amy, I'm going on a month (Saturday) smoke free thanks to my Riva and I love it...except when am I gonna start feeling better? Even just a little bit...shouldn't not smoking make me feel a little better? Well I don't and my mood is getting worse and worse everyday!
I've been so sick with Fibro, a back that hates me and other general pain .... for years now...only to find out 2 months ago that most of my problems are actually that I have NO f'ing thyroid function (which can cause a lot of the pain issues I've been having). So instead of treating my thyroid my doc has me on enough meds to knock a horse out and yet I still hurt every minute of everyday...for the at least the last 5 years. I feel like a junkie counting the hours and minutes until I can take more meds! It was obviously easier to dope me to kingdom come rather than treat my thyroid and use mid level narcotics for my back issues...no instead they put me on fentanyl patches, a med almost impossible to wean off of without SERIOUS withdrawals similar to what ...... addicts go through...I'm a mother, wife, nurse, home schooler...not a junkie, so why do I feel like one? Because I hurt like hell and count the hours until my next fix. And what's worse is I NEVER get relief and I'm possibly one of the grumpiest people on earth. Here I sit at the park with my 7year old and I can't enjoy it b/c I'm f'ing miserable! I hurt all over, I'm so tired I just want to sleep! I love my husband and son so much but I'm pretty sure they think I hate them I mean if someone is always ...... about something (or nothing) or sleeping to avoid the realities of life how can they feel and show love?
Why yes I am having a full blown pity party why do you ask? Feel free to ignore me
I've been so sick with Fibro, a back that hates me and other general pain .... for years now...only to find out 2 months ago that most of my problems are actually that I have NO f'ing thyroid function (which can cause a lot of the pain issues I've been having). So instead of treating my thyroid my doc has me on enough meds to knock a horse out and yet I still hurt every minute of everyday...for the at least the last 5 years. I feel like a junkie counting the hours and minutes until I can take more meds! It was obviously easier to dope me to kingdom come rather than treat my thyroid and use mid level narcotics for my back issues...no instead they put me on fentanyl patches, a med almost impossible to wean off of without SERIOUS withdrawals similar to what ...... addicts go through...I'm a mother, wife, nurse, home schooler...not a junkie, so why do I feel like one? Because I hurt like hell and count the hours until my next fix. And what's worse is I NEVER get relief and I'm possibly one of the grumpiest people on earth. Here I sit at the park with my 7year old and I can't enjoy it b/c I'm f'ing miserable! I hurt all over, I'm so tired I just want to sleep! I love my husband and son so much but I'm pretty sure they think I hate them I mean if someone is always ...... about something (or nothing) or sleeping to avoid the realities of life how can they feel and show love?
Why yes I am having a full blown pity party why do you ask? Feel free to ignore me