i decided to vent a little here b/c you guys should be able to understand...
i went to the doctor today. I made the appointment 4 months ago. yes, 4 months. I rely on government subsidized health care. it isnt free, but much reduced. so it takes forever to get appointments.
at some point in 2010 the right side of my throat felt like it was beginning to close up. Ive had swollen lymph nodes for the last few years, and even a CAT scan in '09, which came back fine.
i smoked and partied for 18 years. this plus the swollen nodes, pain, and narrowing throat...yes i have been terrified about cancer. everyday.
i broke down crying when i was trying to explain this all to the doctor.
he felt my neck and says i am fine. and that i need to see a shrink for anxiety issues. he diagnosed me w generalized anxiety disorder. EXCUSE ME??
he did order a cbc and thyroid.
i will be graduating in may with a BA in psychology. he did not properly evaluate me to make that diagnosis. no way no how. a 15 minute discussion DOES NOT replace methodologies in place to handle mental disorders!
i am just so mad right now. i cant even enjoy the fact that he doesnt think i have cancer, b/c i feel like i have been slighted. how dare i worry about cancer after 18 years of smoking right? RIGHT? and murphys law being what it is...he better not have just jinxed my test results...
we are told smoking equals cancer. we are told early detection is key to surviving cancer. you let your throat start closing up and wait 4 months to see a damn doctor and tell me how anxious YOU are!
(btw, my throat seems to be healing since i quit analogs and started vaping. i have been vaping 5 weeks)
GGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
i might have to write his boss...not that it would do any good...

i went to the doctor today. I made the appointment 4 months ago. yes, 4 months. I rely on government subsidized health care. it isnt free, but much reduced. so it takes forever to get appointments.
at some point in 2010 the right side of my throat felt like it was beginning to close up. Ive had swollen lymph nodes for the last few years, and even a CAT scan in '09, which came back fine.
i smoked and partied for 18 years. this plus the swollen nodes, pain, and narrowing throat...yes i have been terrified about cancer. everyday.
i broke down crying when i was trying to explain this all to the doctor.
he felt my neck and says i am fine. and that i need to see a shrink for anxiety issues. he diagnosed me w generalized anxiety disorder. EXCUSE ME??
he did order a cbc and thyroid.
i will be graduating in may with a BA in psychology. he did not properly evaluate me to make that diagnosis. no way no how. a 15 minute discussion DOES NOT replace methodologies in place to handle mental disorders!
i am just so mad right now. i cant even enjoy the fact that he doesnt think i have cancer, b/c i feel like i have been slighted. how dare i worry about cancer after 18 years of smoking right? RIGHT? and murphys law being what it is...he better not have just jinxed my test results...
we are told smoking equals cancer. we are told early detection is key to surviving cancer. you let your throat start closing up and wait 4 months to see a damn doctor and tell me how anxious YOU are!
(btw, my throat seems to be healing since i quit analogs and started vaping. i have been vaping 5 weeks)
GGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
i might have to write his boss...not that it would do any good...
