I've been feeling the same way about the Christmas season, the last few years,this year especially, it has to do with not having any money to spend. This year is really bad because of being off work for so long. I should be looking at all my blessings because somehow I've managed to keep the rent paid, the lights and heat on and keep my car. I really don't know how that all has happened so I'm going to take that as my Christmas present, everyone else will just have to understand.
Just an FYI: First, IMO - FEELING Bad because "You" don''t have money to spend on presents . . . WELL - That Is Just WRONG . . . AND - If "everyone" has a problem with that - "TUFF" . . .
Once again - IMO - "You" & "Wifey" Don't NEED them in your life . . . Just Sayin' . . .
BTW: That is just one of the reasons why "My" friends and I usually wait until after the holidays if we choose to exchange any purchased gifts, especially those of "Us" who didn't have a lot of money to spend . . . More importantly, "We" decided that "We're" just happy to be with each other another year celebrating "Our" Friendships with each other during the holidays
(Especially since a majority of "Us" already lost a number of friends even before "We" reached an age when were old enough too ) . . .
Matter of fact, as another FYI . . . The best gifts I ever received and remember to this day have absolutely nothing to do with what amount of money was spent - but that I was at least thought of . . . AND - One of them was something I truly appreciated ever year, especially now that they no longer are sent . . . "My" eldest sister
(who was not a baker at all 
) use to make homemade cookies (all different kinds) and Chex Mix Snacks that were sent in a special container
(that I save and reused for storing "Stuff" - one I use as a sewing box that I still have today) . . . Well - One Year, when I lived in NYC, the Post office lost the package only to find it 3 months later and delivered it finally at the end of March . . . The best part was everything was still fresh as the day it was shipped, because she wrapped each and every single cookie individually in plastic wrap and had sealed the box so well . . . YES - I did eat them all . . . Just Sayin' . . .
(AND - I still wish she sent them, but she stopped over 10 years ago . . . )
This last year they only put up a tree in the mailroom and skipped the rest of the building....I am thankful of that as it looked like someone took decorations from all the residents old homes and put them up around here....
Oh - I SO FEEL YOUR PAIN . . . I only wish they would do the same thing here . . . BUT NO - The Management company actually holds a Christmas Decorating competition every year . . . AND - I really don't want to tell what horrific garbage is used around here . . .
BTW: I am not talking about the "Charlie Brown" or the "goudie" outrageous decorations and lights that are absolutely beautiful to see at night, but the disgusting refuse dragged out of people's apartments and put on display . . .
(Worse thing is some of these people actually also decorate the areas outside of their apartments with the same type of "stuff' all year) . . .
Blue!
