This past year has been a really tough one. September 2012 found me smoking 2 packs+ of analogs a day. My dad had started going in and out of the hospital due to prostatic cancer and I hit rock bottom when I caught myself smoking a pad in barely 4 days. Searching for a new Zippo lighter I ran into an ecig ad. I was no noob to vaping, started in 2009 and 2010 and gave up for money reasons. vaping is outrageously expensive here, and I could well smoke 3 packs a day for the 100 bucks I spend vaping. So I decided to give the thing one more shot. Bought myself an eGo kit and started again.
1 year later I look back and I'm not sure at what I see. I'm vaping on and off, sometimes enjoying vaping but most of the days craving a cigarette. I still smoke a 10 cig pack of analogs that adds 20 bucks to the 100 dollar vaping bill. My equipment has been failing in several ways and although I have backups I'm always anxious. Takes a long time for vaping supplies to get here so I double on everything and yet, just one of my devices is really foolproof. To top it off, my father's passing in late march added to my anxiety with paperwork, inscrupulous persons trying to gain from the situation and the general sorrow of the whole thing.
I tried, oh yes I tried a lot of things. Before passing my dad gave me the gift of buying everything I might need for the coming months. The only thing I could say I really took advantage of the things he bought me was the spare eliquid, a Vapeonly BCC, the eVic and batteries. All the rest (and mind you, he spent almost 900 bucks on vaping equipment) failed miserably though these past months.
Just yesterday I was vaping on my term C and it fell on the table. All of a sudden it went from 1.6 ohms to 1. And I wanted to vape badly. The bad vape days are the most, equipment that fails, liquids that aren't that tasty or taste funky, PVs that fail... I dressed up and went for a pack of analogs.
My mother died at 53 of a stroke. My last boyfriend (a smoking buddy since we were 15) has been in a coma for the past 3 years after a stroke. We used to smoke together and seeing him lying in that bed makes me try harder. But it's not working, and I think it's about time giving up.
My worst mistake was saying "one cig won't hurt me". But it did hurt. Since then I long for bedtime and the time I open my pack of cigarettes. I decided when I hit 1 year to make a balance to know if it's worth spending more money on vaping. Yet, I still want to buy more gadgets and new liquids. I still haven't decided what to do, but one thing is clear: when I crush the 10 pack after getting up I still want to go on smoking. The first couple of hours of vaping are terrible, and afterwards most days I crave for a cigarette all day long. I have no doubt of the health benefits, and I love to vape in non smoking places. But I feel that vaping is second best to smoking...
Happy one year of vaping to me?!?!
1 year later I look back and I'm not sure at what I see. I'm vaping on and off, sometimes enjoying vaping but most of the days craving a cigarette. I still smoke a 10 cig pack of analogs that adds 20 bucks to the 100 dollar vaping bill. My equipment has been failing in several ways and although I have backups I'm always anxious. Takes a long time for vaping supplies to get here so I double on everything and yet, just one of my devices is really foolproof. To top it off, my father's passing in late march added to my anxiety with paperwork, inscrupulous persons trying to gain from the situation and the general sorrow of the whole thing.
I tried, oh yes I tried a lot of things. Before passing my dad gave me the gift of buying everything I might need for the coming months. The only thing I could say I really took advantage of the things he bought me was the spare eliquid, a Vapeonly BCC, the eVic and batteries. All the rest (and mind you, he spent almost 900 bucks on vaping equipment) failed miserably though these past months.
Just yesterday I was vaping on my term C and it fell on the table. All of a sudden it went from 1.6 ohms to 1. And I wanted to vape badly. The bad vape days are the most, equipment that fails, liquids that aren't that tasty or taste funky, PVs that fail... I dressed up and went for a pack of analogs.
My mother died at 53 of a stroke. My last boyfriend (a smoking buddy since we were 15) has been in a coma for the past 3 years after a stroke. We used to smoke together and seeing him lying in that bed makes me try harder. But it's not working, and I think it's about time giving up.
My worst mistake was saying "one cig won't hurt me". But it did hurt. Since then I long for bedtime and the time I open my pack of cigarettes. I decided when I hit 1 year to make a balance to know if it's worth spending more money on vaping. Yet, I still want to buy more gadgets and new liquids. I still haven't decided what to do, but one thing is clear: when I crush the 10 pack after getting up I still want to go on smoking. The first couple of hours of vaping are terrible, and afterwards most days I crave for a cigarette all day long. I have no doubt of the health benefits, and I love to vape in non smoking places. But I feel that vaping is second best to smoking...
Happy one year of vaping to me?!?!
Im very sorry to hear about you personal difficulties you have been going thru and hope things will be better for you .
