Happy one year of vaping to me... or NOT!

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Susaz

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This past year has been a really tough one. September 2012 found me smoking 2 packs+ of analogs a day. My dad had started going in and out of the hospital due to prostatic cancer and I hit rock bottom when I caught myself smoking a pad in barely 4 days. Searching for a new Zippo lighter I ran into an ecig ad. I was no noob to vaping, started in 2009 and 2010 and gave up for money reasons. vaping is outrageously expensive here, and I could well smoke 3 packs a day for the 100 bucks I spend vaping. So I decided to give the thing one more shot. Bought myself an eGo kit and started again.

1 year later I look back and I'm not sure at what I see. I'm vaping on and off, sometimes enjoying vaping but most of the days craving a cigarette. I still smoke a 10 cig pack of analogs that adds 20 bucks to the 100 dollar vaping bill. My equipment has been failing in several ways and although I have backups I'm always anxious. Takes a long time for vaping supplies to get here so I double on everything and yet, just one of my devices is really foolproof. To top it off, my father's passing in late march added to my anxiety with paperwork, inscrupulous persons trying to gain from the situation and the general sorrow of the whole thing.

I tried, oh yes I tried a lot of things. Before passing my dad gave me the gift of buying everything I might need for the coming months. The only thing I could say I really took advantage of the things he bought me was the spare eliquid, a Vapeonly BCC, the eVic and batteries. All the rest (and mind you, he spent almost 900 bucks on vaping equipment) failed miserably though these past months.

Just yesterday I was vaping on my term C and it fell on the table. All of a sudden it went from 1.6 ohms to 1. And I wanted to vape badly. The bad vape days are the most, equipment that fails, liquids that aren't that tasty or taste funky, PVs that fail... I dressed up and went for a pack of analogs.

My mother died at 53 of a stroke. My last boyfriend (a smoking buddy since we were 15) has been in a coma for the past 3 years after a stroke. We used to smoke together and seeing him lying in that bed makes me try harder. But it's not working, and I think it's about time giving up.

My worst mistake was saying "one cig won't hurt me". But it did hurt. Since then I long for bedtime and the time I open my pack of cigarettes. I decided when I hit 1 year to make a balance to know if it's worth spending more money on vaping. Yet, I still want to buy more gadgets and new liquids. I still haven't decided what to do, but one thing is clear: when I crush the 10 pack after getting up I still want to go on smoking. The first couple of hours of vaping are terrible, and afterwards most days I crave for a cigarette all day long. I have no doubt of the health benefits, and I love to vape in non smoking places. But I feel that vaping is second best to smoking...

Happy one year of vaping to me?!?!
 

Vash

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You are trying at thats a great thing :)

I saw thread you started earlier about your mods .I agree with what most said about getting a Reo or a Provari.Both are made in the USA and will stand the test of time .If you can find good juice delivery system for either that works for you I think you would be very impressed.I dont want to go on about mods because thats not what this thread is about.

I just wanted to tell you dont give up and good luck :) You have cut back and thats great and hopefully you can get a set up that works for you :thumb: Im very sorry to hear about you personal difficulties you have been going thru and hope things will be better for you .
 

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The main thing for you is to cope with the stresses in your life. Get help if you need it. Gather as much support as you can from friends and family.

When things in your life are more sorted out, you can tackle the cig addiction and commit to vaping.

But for right now, don't beat yourself up for smoking your way through a crisis. We all support you and want you to be healthy but deal with one thing at a time.

Wish I could give you a hug.
 

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I'm sorry to hear about your parents:( I think with the $900 that it's obvious that your dad knew the right thing to do, and hopefully you can take something from that. We all have our daily struggles, but have you tried stronger nic levels or NET juices? I smoked for the better part of 21 years and almost feel guilty about how easy it has been to quit the stinky sticks, but I must have just gotten the right setup right away. Though there are still days that are harder than others. I hope that you can see through the smokes and hop all in on the vape train! I'll keep you in mind and pray that things get easier for you, it seems like you have a lot on your plate right now....wishing you the best!
 

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First off I'm sorry for your loss.
Second today I was having one of those days where I did want to smoke.

What helped me was changing habits. When I woke up in the morning, instead of grabbing that cigarette first
thing. I vaped, then I smoked. That first cup of coffee, I vaped then I had a cigarette.
After a meal I vaped then I smoked.
I started vaping first then smoking, then finally I said shine after a week of vaping and starting to smoke less.
I just went for it, if I can anyone can. I was an average two pack a day smoker. But I ran through more than that.
Because I only smoked my cigarettes half way.
U may not can by yourself but here we can do it together, minute by minute second by second, but we can.
Good luck u are already a full time vaper.......:D
 

Susaz

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Thanks everyone! I have a tough decision to make... Either I go on and plunge the cash needed for reliable equipment (much to my dismay, maybe the Provari is the only thing Susazproof) and stop althogether smoking or try again next time. There's a saying in spanish "Third time wins" so make it work somehow!!!
 

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I can only offer my best wishes for you and hope in time a peace will come over you that removes some of the burden and stress you are experiencing.
It is a given that the addiction of smoking makes things easier to cope with for most of us. Unfortunately it is still an addiction and a very deadly one in the long run. All we each can do is prepare ourselves for the time when we feel we can Beat it.
Time to step back and take a good at life around you. Decide on what things you can change to make life better for You and start to find that special feeling you know you deserve.

One Day at a time,
Dal
 
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