My name is Phanie and I'm getting my 510 today. Im excited, nervous, and basically chain-smoking as I wait for it to arrive. To be able to enjoy my habit without putting out others means the world to me.
My Testimony (in a nutshell)
I was saved at 14 (I'm 28 now). God has been a constant thread in my life; as a teen I was "on fire" for the Lord but things changed drastically when I met my ex-husband. He was a Christian also but we were both foolish and in love. As things go, I became pregnant at 18 and we were married soon after.
The next four years are misty. We stopped going to church, had another little girl and... well, drugs and alcohol and despair became the norm. I left him four years later and God (through my parents) patiently and lovingly redirected me back to the path I started on. It's been a long, hard process. I became someone I never thought I'd be: angry, vulgar, ect. Even today I still struggle with these things.
A year and a half ago, God brought my husband and I together. Looking back and talking about our lives, we seemed like "two ships passing in the night"; we lived within 20 miles of each other when I previously lived in MO with my ex. Our lives and the choices we made paralleled and finally intersected. When we met we were at the same point in our walk, so far from the narrow path and we wanted so much to return.
We married a year ago and, as a blessed wedding present, I was gifted a 10 year old son. On our honeymoon, God gave us another blessing: 9 months later, I gave birth to our second son. Altogether we have two boys and two girls.
Now
We attend a Baptist church in Kansas City, MO. I have never seen a church so wonderful, loving, and Biblically sound. When we first moved here we ran into financial hardships and, for about five months, the church let our girls go to their school and trusted us to pay them back when we could (my eldest son lives with his mom and she doesn't support our beliefs.) I finally understood what "church family" meant.
God granted our prayers and on February 22, 2011, the VA back-paid my husband what they owed and we are now debt-free.
For the first time in my life I understand what it is to love the Lord and trust in Him. Unfortunately, as is the human design, now that our financial hardships are taken care of I've moved on to petty things. I need to keep my eyes and ears and heart on the Lord and this is hard for me.
On vaping
To be honest, I believe that smoking and vaping are not Biblically correct. We can split hairs and say that vaping is better than smoking, which it is, but God doesn't weigh sin. Let's be honest: it's a worldly thing and God calls us to be in the world, not of it. However, if none of us were hypocrites then we wouldn't need the blood of Christ and God's Word. Even without smoking, I sin every minute of every day; that's why I need Jesus Christ.
That being said, I acknowledge my limitations while I don't want to quit the habit I also don't want to be a stumbling block for others. Being a smoker and a Christian has placed limitations on me. I am tired of stinking up the back yard and smelling like smoke (much to the chagrin of my husband who is smoke-free for 3 weeks). I am tired of coughing all the time. I can't sing like I used to and singing is a ministry that I'd love to get into but refuse to at this time due to smoking.
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Whew! Okay, that's me. Thank you for reading and I would love to get to know you all better. Feel free to PM me anytime.
God bless you!!
Phanie
My Testimony (in a nutshell)
I was saved at 14 (I'm 28 now). God has been a constant thread in my life; as a teen I was "on fire" for the Lord but things changed drastically when I met my ex-husband. He was a Christian also but we were both foolish and in love. As things go, I became pregnant at 18 and we were married soon after.
The next four years are misty. We stopped going to church, had another little girl and... well, drugs and alcohol and despair became the norm. I left him four years later and God (through my parents) patiently and lovingly redirected me back to the path I started on. It's been a long, hard process. I became someone I never thought I'd be: angry, vulgar, ect. Even today I still struggle with these things.
A year and a half ago, God brought my husband and I together. Looking back and talking about our lives, we seemed like "two ships passing in the night"; we lived within 20 miles of each other when I previously lived in MO with my ex. Our lives and the choices we made paralleled and finally intersected. When we met we were at the same point in our walk, so far from the narrow path and we wanted so much to return.
We married a year ago and, as a blessed wedding present, I was gifted a 10 year old son. On our honeymoon, God gave us another blessing: 9 months later, I gave birth to our second son. Altogether we have two boys and two girls.
Now
We attend a Baptist church in Kansas City, MO. I have never seen a church so wonderful, loving, and Biblically sound. When we first moved here we ran into financial hardships and, for about five months, the church let our girls go to their school and trusted us to pay them back when we could (my eldest son lives with his mom and she doesn't support our beliefs.) I finally understood what "church family" meant.
God granted our prayers and on February 22, 2011, the VA back-paid my husband what they owed and we are now debt-free.
For the first time in my life I understand what it is to love the Lord and trust in Him. Unfortunately, as is the human design, now that our financial hardships are taken care of I've moved on to petty things. I need to keep my eyes and ears and heart on the Lord and this is hard for me.
On vaping
To be honest, I believe that smoking and vaping are not Biblically correct. We can split hairs and say that vaping is better than smoking, which it is, but God doesn't weigh sin. Let's be honest: it's a worldly thing and God calls us to be in the world, not of it. However, if none of us were hypocrites then we wouldn't need the blood of Christ and God's Word. Even without smoking, I sin every minute of every day; that's why I need Jesus Christ.
That being said, I acknowledge my limitations while I don't want to quit the habit I also don't want to be a stumbling block for others. Being a smoker and a Christian has placed limitations on me. I am tired of stinking up the back yard and smelling like smoke (much to the chagrin of my husband who is smoke-free for 3 weeks). I am tired of coughing all the time. I can't sing like I used to and singing is a ministry that I'd love to get into but refuse to at this time due to smoking.
***
Whew! Okay, that's me. Thank you for reading and I would love to get to know you all better. Feel free to PM me anytime.
God bless you!!
Phanie