I am currently in remission from stage 3 cancer (Diffuse, Large B-Cell, Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma). Diagnosed in January, 2010. 13 hours of very powerful chemotherapy cocktail containing 5 separate poisons every three weeks for most of that year, until November, 2010. Have been in remission since January, 2011 and am due for my next "6-month" check up this month. I initially stopped smoking on November 7, 2010, right after my last chemo infusion. But unfortunately the chemo damaged my body so much that I now am disabled due to a poor immune system, neuropathy, Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and auto-immune disorders that all together cause unimaginable chronic pain 24/7. I take many opiates everyday to help me cope with this pain. As I was saying, I initially stopped smoking for a few months, but the physical and emotional pain, constant vomiting and severe sleep deprivation caused me to start again. None of my doctors know this though. So, I cannot reach out to them for help. I am embarrassed and ashamed that I started again and feel like a failure. These feelings are real, so please don't reply back that I shouldn't feel this way. I already know that, but yet I still feel these emotions! I used to be an extreme optimist. That's how I survived the cancer in the first place. I also have a high threshold when it comes to pain, yet here I am on so many pain medications because I cannot go without them even for one day. I used to hate taking medications and would always use alternative medicine and holistic remedies first, before submitting to prescription medication. My life is so different now. I want to quit smoking. I have been researching e-cigarettes for about a month and recently decided to try the brand called V2. I was going to place my first order, (a starter kit) from them a few hours ago. However, I went on their website and before ordering I viewed one of their instructional videos to refresh me on how to use their product. At the end of the video, the lady speaking stated the company's disclaimer, which scared me so much that I didn't order. She said that the product was not for non-smokers (well that's a no-brainer), but she also said it was not for people with high blood pressure, not for those at risk for heart disease and not for people with asthma. First of all, I have been on blood pressure medicine for about 10 years now and it is basically under control with the medicine. Second, heart disease runs in my family and I myself have had some heart issues in the past due to stress, but never had an actual heart attack. My cholesterol and triglycerides are through the roof I might add and as far as asthma, I have minor attacks occasionally. But those asthma events happen so infrequently that I go through one inhaler every 10-12 months. Still, I was terrified to order because of their warnings. I need help. I can't turn to my doctors about this, so please don't suggest that. I just can't. Still, I feel so foolish to still be smoking. I mean I had cancer and am only in remission...that does NOT mean I'm cancer free. You only get to be labeled as cancer free if you go at least 10 years without the disease coming back. Is anybody out there? Can anybody hear me? I am sleep deprived, very weak most days, in constant pain all over my body and very scared. I really want to quit smoking asap. Please help me if you can. Thanks guys.