Most of you don't know, except for Lady T and another friend I have in Texas, but I got deeper and deeper into a very dark depression that had been building and building for months. I wasn't suicidal or anything like that, but all my coping skills of life went on major tilt and I just didn't care about any or everything. Except for getting depressed when my body started breaking down in 1993 for almost a year, I'm not the type of person who sits around and 'wallers' in self-pity for more than 3 or 4 days before I snap out of it. I am an A Personality, which is another reason I was a bit 'confruzed' (as my son used to say) about what was going on. Then chronic fatigue kicked in for quite a few weeks. I would get up, watch tv until bedtime as that was all the energy I had. I stopped going anywhere and became almost a hermit over a period of months. My awesome husband wanted me to get counseling and it seems that between that session and talking to my doctor who changed some medication, PLUS THE GRACE OF GOD, I am climbing out of this hole. It stemmed from the death of my beloved parents. The thing I didn't understand was why it was weighing on me so strong since Daddy died in July 2007 and Mom Oct 2009. I just couldn't find my way and didn't care if I ever found it or not.
So that is why I wasn't on the board for awhile. It had nothing to do with anyone or anything in particular on this site. It was me. I will tell you, that this did give me first hand information on depression ...... it is dark. I could feel it, but didn't care. The Lord protected me when I was unable. What a Wonderful God we serve! AMEIN!!