Congrats on your 36th day! I know how hard it is at this point and its hard, I had some of the same side effects that you had while on Chantix but I got so bad that I actually got admitted to a hospital because I tried to kill myself because my then husband was in jail, I was home alone all the time, I was trying to quit smoking, nobody was there to support me but my therapist that I see once a week who makes house calls and found me lying in a pool of blood because I had slit my wrist because I wanted to die and the feeling was so so strong I couldn't do anything to stop it! The dreams were horrific, and I couldn't get them to stop so I quit sleeping all together...God I hate telling this story but I don't want anyone else to ever take that Gawd awful drug EVER! It is the devil drug! I got diagnosed as having severe bipolar disorder even though I was on Chantix because I was suicidal but at the same time since my ex husband's parents were paying the bills, I was buying everything I could get my hands on! So I was manic too..or so the doctor said...I don't know I just take the medicine because I never want to get to that point in my life again where I feel so hopeless that there is no choice but to die.
I must be bipolar because my son just got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and both my parents are bipolar..and they say it runs in the family so I guess it could be true but I will sue if Chantix made me bipolar, or made my bipolar tendencies come out of hiding, I should ask my doctor about that on Monday when I see him! I hope nobody thinks any less of me since I was one of those attempts that was reported while on Chantix. I would hate to leave a great vaping community due to a few jerks who have to make fun of the girl who tried to kill herself while on a drug and really she was bipolar blah blah blah! I don't need any of that I am still trying to get over the fact that I actually tried to take my life but was lucky enough to be found by my counselor who comes to my home THANK GOD FOR HER!!