Thanks so much for your response and all you shared.....and prayers. Wow....what a weird couple of hours I have had now! I called mom and she actually "answered" and she actually told me she was in the hospital! so that is good. she was being honest, but oh my I couldn't understand hardly anything she was saying!!! She did say she was tired, so I asked her if she wanted to go take a nap and call me when she wakes up and she said yes. Here I was on the other end really crying because I couldnt understand her. She sounded so drugged up. Then I got in touch with my brother who lives with her.......he said yes, she has lost weight, and is more fragile. She went in because of her rib hurting. One of her big dogs jumped on her back a few months back and may have messed something up. He said, she goes to cook something, starts hurting, decides to take a pain pill and then falls asleep and he thinks that is why she is loosing weight. He said she sends him out middle of the night to get food and such when she is hungry and awake. But, of course, this has nothing to do with the kidney failure and she does not want to look at that, or know where her kidneys are now. I think, though, they are gonna check her our thouroughly while they have her there. My brother thinks......she has lost the weight due to pain, and not the fact of not being hungry. He says, he thinks she is not on her last leg, so to speak, but yes, maybe her last year. He is not God, nor a doctor, but maybe he is right. He said she ran out of her meds and was halucinating, but now has just gotten her meds and is more like herself. except at this moment she seems super drugged up. That could just be her having taking her own stuff while also getting stuff in the hospital. They didn't get to the hospital til this eveneing due to mom not feeling like it! She was supposed to go yesterday evening!
Then after that, my brother sees an old girlfriend of mine that I haven't seen in 23 years and puts her on the phone to talk to me!
Then while that call is taking place, my son calls to ask me "what he was anxious about when he was little!" My son, when he was 5years old used to worry about.......How am I gonna know what to do when I grow up and get a job? How will I know how to do it?
That and........I remember him sitting on the sofa at 5pm stressing about the lady at daycare making him eat all his lunch the next day!!
He was a very picky eater and that worried him immensley! That's how bad he disliked a lot of foods! Anyway, he is 23 now and he was chatting with another girl who used to be anxious as a child, so he was trying to remember what it was that bothered him so.
Sooo.......weird evening But at least I got to talk to mom, don't know if she will remember, but.......and I got to talk to brother and get his take on things. And they are gonna check her out tomorrow. I am getting stuff ready in case I need to go. Gonna get oil changed tomorrow and clothes ready so I can leave quickly if I feel I should.
Thank You sooooooooooo much for your prayers.
Ohhh I am so sorry to hear of your mom's passing. I know what you mean about pictures, having videos, and just listening better.
I lost my dad in 1980 to leukemia. He was 64 and only in the hospital for 2 months after being diagnosed when he passed. It is so hard to see your parents ill.
Wow, that gave me chills when you said your mom's eyes turned the brightest blue color. So bittersweet! I do know that last year, before she had dialysis, she was on her way out. OMG on our 9 hour drive to get there, we stopped to get gas and across the street was a place I would have normally not even noticed. BUT I DID. It was a place called "Journeys End"! OMG I cried and prayed I would get there in time. And ....when I got there, thats when she was just so Angelic like and loving, not questioning a thing, not wondering why I was there or all of her 7 kids. She was just happy to "just be". Something magical was definitely happening. Then, doctor called and talked her into going into the hospital, which before that she just wouldn't. So then she started dialysis and then became more of her normal self. Now though, like I said she hasnt gone in quite a while, so we will see what they say. Again Thank You so much for your prayers and sharing. I really do appreciate it. Sorry, I know this got kinda long....... Huggs
lol. But I want in on this contest! 
