My maternal grandfather died today

[Rocketpunk]

He had surgery two days ago and recovered OK from the anesthesia. But he died this morning (12:30) from a blood clot.

I have had no one die in my family until now. I don't know what to feel, how to feel, or anything, for that matter.

I am simultaneously angry, sad, furious, defeated, and I just don't know.

I love you, Pappy. You took me to the flea market when I was a kid. You took me to Dunkin Donuts before each trip to the dentist. You encouraged me to get into science, and go back to college. You were the coolest grandpa ever. You looked like Santa Claus. I love you, Pappy, and I miss you already.

I want to be angry at God but I cannot. If I die and there's nothing at the end, I guess I won't be upset. But I really, really, really want to see him again someday. I don't know what to feel or how to express anything right now.

 

[GraCnT]

I am very sorry for your loss.......... Its a very difficult thing to go through.... And how you are feeling is exactly how you should be... i know I felt the same confused surreal feeling as you. Stay strong,, and keep the faith and the hope. Again,. my deepest condolences to you and your family... grace

 

[StereoDreamer]

My deepest sympathies to you. My maternal grandfather passes several years ago (at the ripe old age of 93!).

We were very close, and I miss him very much. I was honored by my family with being asked to do the eulogy, which was one of the most difficult pieces of public speaking I've ever done, but it has become one of my most important life moments.

The loss of such a family member is fraught with emotion, confusion, and sometimes even anger. Just remember, he may be gone, but s long as his memory lives in your heart, he is still with you.

Cherish the fond memories. Keep his stories alive by telling and re-telling them. Keep his traditions alive by continuing to practice them. These re the way we give our loved ones eternal life--by remembering their ways, and passing them on to future generations.

Peace, love and mellow vapes to you , brother...

 

[r77r7r]

My deepest condolences to you and your family.

After some time passes, and you go thru the stages of grief, There'll come a time when you realize he'll be forever in your heart, and just a thought will bring back fond memories.